Cold Cruel World

I suffer from depression
Complete depression
Had it my whole life
I have had it so bad that uh...
I had anxiety
Been diagnosed with major depression
Lots of phobias, lots of fears
Anxiety, panic attacks
I had depression before,
I didn't think that
Depression could be so bad[Verse 1:]
Sometimes it feels like the world's on my shoulders
Everything around me closing in, it starts to grow colder
It's like
I'm sitting on death row and waitin' for conclusion
************ts real ****** up, my brains filled with much confusion
Do you know what it is to sit a 3am
With a gun pressed to your temple on your knees prayin'
Or in the bathroom, on the floor, a handfull of pills
Cause the ******' rent's due and you can't pay bills
Have you ever felt the cold grip of death in your heart
I'm talkin' rips right in your cavity and pulls it apart
Ten mother******' seconds just from ending this ************t
Flames rising from the ashes that your about to commit
Have you ever stopped your car somewhere far from everythin'
Sat a half an hour, just thinkin' of a better way
To put your soul to rest and set your mind at ease
Put the barrel in my mouth,
I wanna sleep for all eternity[Chorus:]
Dear cold cruel world why am
I here?I never asked to be alive
Everyday it's just a struggle even to survive
Dear please just wipe away the tears
I'll be better off when
I'm goneIn my own private
Hell and left all alone[Verse 2:]
So many reasons just to leave this ******' planet
Pressure gets to be so much, the way you just can't stand it
People hatin', credit problems, ************ be ******' your friends
A million reasons, circumstances for your soul to transend
Nobody like me,
I'm a loser, parents wish
I was dead
I'm overweight, can't get a date,
I'll turn my walls to red
I lock the door, turn up the music, flip the
T.V. screen
I leave a bloody ******' mess out for my moms to clean
It's to the point that
I can't stand it,
I can't even try to cope
And you don't know me, you can't help me, you can't offer me no hope
It's too late to try and stop it,
I done lost the ******' war
I ain't gonna write no ******' letter, leave my answers on the floor
I'm a do it
I swear, don't even think
I'm even ******' lyin'
Nobody gonna remember me, nobody gonna be cryin'
All alone in my death like
I was in life
Let me take my final breath, they can bury me tonight[Chorus:]
Dear cold cruel world why am
I here?I never asked to be alive
Everyday it's just a struggle even to survive
Dear please just wipe away the tears
I'll be better off when
I'm goneIn my own private
Hell and left all alone[Bridge:]
You won't miss me when
I'm gone(Flames risin', flames risin')
I know you did me so wrong(Flames risin')[Gunshot][Chorus/Outro:]
Dear cold cruel world why am
I here?Flames risin', flames risin'
Dear please just wipe away the tears
Flames risin', flames risin'
Dear cold cruel world why am
I here?(just wipe away, just wipe away)
Flames risin', flames risin'
Dear please juse wipe away the tears(just wipe away, just wipe away)
Flames risin', flames risin'
Dear cold cruel world why am
I here?Flames risin', flames risin'
Dear please juse wipe away the tears
Flames risin', flames risin'