Scars (prod. M.E)

Yo
...
I'm pushing you away
我希望你离我远一点儿
Cause every time we talk, it hurts
因为每次和你说话，我都难受地要命
Help me cure out my depression
你以为你帮忙治好了我的抑郁
It gave me a sense of worth
就让我看到活着的意义
It's like you helped me out the mud
但这就像你把我从一个深渊里拉出来
And then shoved me in the dirt
然后又将我推进另一个深渊
Now I'm stuck feeling like I'm the only person on the Earth
现在我只觉得我被困住了，我觉得我是这世上唯一一个人了
You were like my world
你曾经像是一个保护我远离世界的玻璃罩
And I watched it fall apart
可我眼睁睁看着它碎掉了
Now I'm drifting through the cosmos
现在我就像一块在宇宙里漂来漂去的石头
And circling the stars
绕着某个星球毫无目的的转着
Help me
你来救救我吧
Put the blade down
帮我把手里的刀收走
And close up all the scars
陪我等我的伤口愈合
But now my biggest scar
可现在我身上最疼的
Is the one up on my heart
是赶走你以后，留在我心里的伤疤
If it took my life to be with you
所以如果能和你在一起的话
Then I would gladly give it
无论什么结果我都会欣然接受
Depression's an infection
抑郁会传染的
And you're the cure for the sickness
可你是我唯一一剂良药
Lately I been tripping and honestly I don't get it
最近我去了很多地方，但说实话我不知道旅行的意义
It was only three months but it felt like a minute
三个月过去了，可我觉得这也就花了我一分钟
I'm stupid and annoying
在你面前的我总是有点儿蠢，又爱发脾气
But that's only cause I care
但这都是因为我太在乎你的一切了
And any time you need me girl you know that I'll be there
只要你需要我，我就会立刻出现的
Most nights I'm staring down a barrel
太多个晚上我盯着自己的枪
It's too much to bear
我觉得要熬到天亮实在太难了
I'm afraid to let you go
我不想让你走
I'll admit I'm ******* scared
我承认，我真的太害怕会失去你了
And I hate being sober cause then I can feel the pain
我恨自己清醒的每分每秒，因为清醒的时候，所有痛苦都会向我袭来
So I tell myself to numb it and then grab the ******* blade
所以我靠zc来自我麻痹
Watching as the droplets roll down my wrist like its rain
我看着手腕上冒出来的血珠落下来，就像我的手腕在下雨一样
And I don't wanna leave
我也不是想死
But you know that I can't stay
可你知道，我也是真的很难继续活下去