what i am

I've been faded in the basement, contemplating
All the places I escape to gotta face it
I'm erasing faces from my brain just to replace it
'Cause I got so much pain in here that only I've created
Man, I just don't know if I can do this anymore
I shut the ******* door on everyone that I adore
And only wants to watch me soar
I'm starting wars with the help that I've been looking for
So I don't have to swim ashore and ruin who I've guarantored
I think I'll stop breathing
(Stop breathing)
Run away just to escape all my demons
(Escape all my demons)
You don't know how I'm feeling but
The pressure on my back got me crying for no reason
I'm a mess inside a body of a man
Implementing pain inside my brain is all I can
Do whatever you can to evade the upper hand
Life is full of ****-ups and I know just what I am
Yeah I know just what I am
Mute my sound, let me drown, I'm not calming down
I think it's over now, like king without a ******* crown
My throne's been thrown around, and time's still slowing down
I'll take it as a sign to barricade and wreck my proper noun
It only hurts, with every verse, I think I'm ******* cursed
Tell me it gets better, I'll feel worse, yeah that ****'s rehearsed
I'm too perverse to smiles, so I'm breathing in reverse
Tryna lure my lungs to burst and bodybag me in a hearse
I think I'll stop breathing
(Stop breathing)
Run away just to escape all my demons
(Escape all my demons)
You don't know how I'm feeling like
The pressure on my back got me crying for no reason
I'm a mess inside a body of a man
Implementing pain inside my brain is all I can
Do whatever you can to evade the upper hand
Life is full of ****-ups and I know just what I am
Yeah I know just what I am
What I am is a prodigy
(Is a prodigy)
I'm a full metal alchemist, using reverse psychology
To make myself believe that I am proud of me
(That I am proud of me)
But I hate my ******* face in all honesty
Honestly, I don't think I'll make it past twenty-six
(Past twenty-six)
Seven grams in the grinder, where's the ****'s the spliff?
Rollin' sticky 'cause I'm feeling like ******* ****
(Like ******* ****)
Separation anxiety's just a ******* trip
I find it funny when you tell me that you care
You say that you love me but your love's not fair
Distancing yourself from the feelings I impair
If you wanna let me go, better tell me when and where
(When and where)