清醒时我希望自己能改变，却只能迷失自我
不断地消耗精力，在房间里创作音乐
妈妈问我“那成果在哪？为什么你对家里没有任何贡献？
When I'm lucid I wish to lose id, instead I lose it.
为什么你对这个世界还是一无所知，Rav，你的房间味道冲死了！”
Self consumed, in my room pursuing music.
她认为我什么都不在乎
Momma asking"Where the fruits is? Why are you useless?
老实说，我也开始这样想了
Why are you clueless about the world, Rav, your room stinks!"
无论是钱还是在家里的地位我都没能得到
She thinks I don't give two shits.
难道我是麦田里的守望者？被伪装起来的疯子？
Truth is, she might be right.
放弃了一切却只为了想象中的生活？
I fail to see the light in both gold and family pride.
就这样即将被赶出自己的家，离开属于自己的乐园
Am I the cather in the rye? Batshit in disguise?
这时才发现，镜中的自己只是一个寄生虫
Tossed reality for an imaginable life?
一副贼眉鼠眼的样子
Bout to be kicked out the house, get detached from paradise.
而在社会不断变化的标准下
Only recognize this then, mirror shows a parasite.
可能我还没有那么堕落
What a shifty pair of eyes.
家里认为我不会去努力
In this shifting paradigm.
尝试过反抗却只能被社会玩弄在指尖上，唉
I ain't shit, apparently
他们逼我禁足在家，但对我来说在家也很煎熬
parents think that I don't try.
反过来想想，自己主动去自虐怎么样
Tried to fight the system, bound to play into its hands, man.
大概也不会有什么区别，不如还是乖乖坐着
They say stay grounded, but the floor is lava for the madman.
（现实就是如此）
Upside down approach, in the lava doing handstands.
这就是我的现实
Probably ain't no different, just a bad plan.
（现实就是如此）
（现实就是如此）
(This is what it feels like)
每当自我感觉良好时，就会意识到
This is what real life feels like.
（现实就是如此）
(This is what it feels like)
嘿，我需要点意见
(This is what it feels like)
有个恶魔潜伏在这个镇里
Whenever you feel nice, realize.
而我只能预见到一塌糊涂的人生
(This is what it feels like)
（现实就是如此）
Yo, I gotta take advice.
这就是我的现实
There's a demon lurking in this town.
（现实就是如此）
I gotta jump the rail of life
嗯，这就是我的现实
(This is what it feels like)
你看，这就是现实啊
This is what real life feels like.
就算没人在找你，但你依旧躲了起来
(This is what it feels like)
对自己只能依靠"药物"生活的习惯而感到狂躁
Yup, this is what real life feels like.
不禁想到从此之后会不会只是个无名小卒
从来都没接近过一直在找的幸福
See, this is what it feels like
每次醒来都好比在做最逼真的噩梦
When nobody looking for you, but you still hide
我承认我是个怪人，操，也只有我在乎
When you been kicked your habits like the pill life.
他们说我爹是个恶棍
Took that monkey off your back but it still bites.
不过我从来都没了解过他
Will I ever get anywhere but right here?
在我妈看我的时候，她又会想到什么
Chasing happiness but never getting quite near.
在她眼中的我是不是和我扭曲的爹一模一样
Every waking moment most vivid of nightmares.
我已经犯了太多的错误，以后也不见得会改
I'm weird, **** it. I'll admit it, man, I care.
尝试过自杀,但失败后也不觉得自己像活着
And they say he was a thug.
牵着黑暗中完全看不见希望的最后一根稻草
I never knew my dad.
这种感觉真烂
When my mom looks at me, what it is she looking at.
不过这就是现实吧
Ever since I got kicked out of school for cooking crack.
是吧？
Then pushing crack, I wonder if she sees me as my crooked dad.
（现实就是如此）
I've ****ed up too many times, and I still might.
这就是我的现实
Tried to kill myself and failed, still don't feel alive.
（现实就是如此）
Grasping at straws in the dark with no real light.
（现实就是如此）
I ain't feeling great.
每当自我感觉良好时，就会意识到
This is what real life feels like.
（现实就是如此）
Right?
嘿，我需要点意见
有个恶魔潜伏在这个镇里
(This is what it feels like)
而我只能预见一塌糊涂的人生
This is what real life feels like.
（现实就是如此）
(This is what it feels like)
这就是我的现实
(This is what it feels like)
（现实就是如此）
Whenever you feel nice, realize.
嗯，这就是我的现实
(This is what it feels like)
Yo, I gotta take advice.
There's a demon lurking in this town.
I gotta jump the rail of life
(This is what it feels like)
This is what real life feels like.
(This is what it feels like)
Yup, this is what real life feels like.
Solanine