alive (feat. habition)

Am I alive, do we all die
Am I contradicting the things in my mind
Never arrive, never deprive
Tension is raising when you hold the knife
Every night, cry in my bed
Alone in my head while my dreams are all dead
Am I a lie, do boys ever cry
Am I acting out 'cause I'm dying inside
Never abide, always subside
All of my friends know I'm dying inside
Wish I had time
Wish I had time
Yeah I wish I had time
I thought we were friends till death do us part
But you hit my crush that **** ****** up my heart
And now I'm alone, I'm ignoring my phone
Never leave my home 'cause I'm scared of dial tones
Scared of dial tones
Been a long time since I’ve felt love like this
But now I’m traveling this road alone
Cultivate fields of all this happiness
Until you come to steal and pillage all the ******* crops I’ve sown
What’s a life without some love to keep the breeze in my sails
Just a boat on the waves
Rocking with the gales
I remember when I used to thrive
Now I struggle to feel like I’ll ever make it out alive
Will I ever make it out alive
Nervous break downs every single night
Scared to even touch the light
I'm afraid of what might come
What might come now
That i lost you
Oh, oh