I am not living
And I don’t really know what voice to listen to
Because none of this shit in my head is even really
Giving me a choice
I am not giving in
I am not part of it
And I dont really care how high you got
To make your heart heartless
I was just as drunk
So we can just argue bout
How we want nothing
And my pains the best
So let me get this off of my flat chest
Let me get this out of my privilege
Where my parents pay for all of my shit
And I had this vision it was like lithium
But I took it too seriously like an idiot
Now I’m gonna in oblivion
Now im gone in oblivion
You had a nice condominum
Nice that you didn’t use a condom
Nice that you gave me so many drugs that I couldn’t even take off
My own armour
But you’re the one who’s honest
Im the novice
You’re the prophet and im the product
And im the process that you wanted and how ironic
Its so bubonic
What’s it like in that fycking office
With a life that’s so ****ing polished
You told me to look passed my hell
But what you do you want from me
Every time I ask myself are you so honestly
I am not the night that you said good bye
I am not the life that will pass you by
So maybe you should find yourself
And come talk to me
Come talk to me
And the truth is
Im still afraid
All of this shit effects me
Everyday
And I tell myself its okay
Get out of bed take a big breath
Light a new match and pretend its the same its an
Honour to have all this life that I claim
And I just want to change
Dont want to stay
Under the earth for the rest of my days
**** what they say
I am amazing
Gone flames blazing
And its dynamite and no small fry
Look at these eyes
Im still alive
I will still fight until the day I die
Never good bye no ties
And I got all this time
Don’t wanna lie
Dont wanna waste not finding the sky
Who knew that id make it through
I ****ing did its what I do
No noose in my bedroom
Cause I will never loose
And I will choose to stay alive
Even though I didn’t want to
Yeah no noose in my bedroom
Cause I will never loose
And I will choose to stay alive even though I didn’t want to
You told me to look passed my hell
But what you do want from me
Every time I ask myself are you so honestly
I am not the night that you said good bye
I am not the life that will pass you by
So maybe you should find yourself
And come talk to me
Come talk to me
Come Talk to Me