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Cause I had the best of the worst sides
因为我余心尚善
And I had these lungs, oh
仍然可以呼吸
And I had too many flash fires
我一闪而过太多灵感
That I just let them burn
但我就只是让它们闪过
Till my chest is on fire
直到我感到热血沸腾
And my head just won't die
我不会再这样消沉
[01:05.01]I guess I'm lyin' cause I wanna
我想我说谎只是因为想说谎
[01:07.70]I guess I'm lyin' cause I don't
我想我说谎是因为我不会说谎
[01:11.15]Cause I just feel so tired
因为我觉得一切都太他妈的难了
Like it's move or slowly die
逃避还是继续前进
So you ain't you when you're like this
所以当你丧的时候这根本不是你
This ain't you and you know it
你心中对这一切都很明了
But ain't that just the point?
但这不只是关键吗？
[01:27.87]And you don't know how to let go
想要一切释怀？
[01:34.26]Who said this must be all or nothing
谁说这一切非得完美不然就毁灭？
[01:38.77]But I'm still caught below and I'll never let you know
但我依然深陷其中但你永远都不会知道
[01:47.45]No, I can't tell you nothing
不，我不能对你隐瞒一切
[04:08.71][02:05.11][01:51.97]Cause I'm a ******* mess sometimes
因为，我他妈的总是搞砸一切
[01:55.36]But still, I could always be whatever you wanted
但是我始终会顺从你意
[02:00.63]But not what you needed
但不是你需要的
[02:02.14]Especially when you've been needing me
特别是当你需要我的时候
[02:08.76]And I'll say what I don't mean
因为我就是个烂摊子
[02:11.91]Just cause I wanted or maybe I need it
我总是心口不一
[02:15.39]Swear lying's the only rush I need, yeah
只是因为我想要或者我需要
Cause all I needed was some words to say
发誓撒谎是我唯一需要的趋之若鹜，是啊
That all these feelings don't mean **** to me
因为我所要的不过是一次交心
Cause it's all just chemicals anyway, anyway, yeah
所有这些感觉并不意味着对我而言是
And I got way too many routes to take
因为这一切都只是化学反应，是啊，管他呢。
To make all this just go away and find another heart to break
我有太多路要走了
So heartless with these words I say
带着一切消失，再找另一个女孩去伤害吗？
Just saying what I'm supposed to say
我这么说的话很无情
Cause I had nothing for you I can't love when I can't even love myself
但我只是说出了我该说的
Things I would rather be
因为当我甚至不能自爱的时候我便没什么爱给你
Thoughts at the back of my head
我愿意做的事
But I'm addicted to hurting
我脑海里的想法
And I got these lungs, yeah
但我沉迷于伤害别人
And I spent too many late nights
我还是个活人
Just thinking a hole in the earth
我浪费了太多良宵
Till the sky is on fire
就只是在想这口大洞
And my head still won't die
直到天空变成红色
Like I need something to come alive
我怎么还没死
She said, "You ain't you when you're like this"
我想我只是因为我想说慌而说谎
"This ain't you, what you've done?"
我想我说谎是因为我不会说谎
And I said, "That's the point"
因为我真的感觉太累了