I Feel So Tired

l feel so tired
l always do
l wake up
But then l can't chose
Do l need to get up
Or lay in bed
Sometimes I think
That I'm better off dead
l don't want no help
I'll tell myself
Go back to sleep
But it never ends well
Times are so slow
l'm in a cloud
These thoughts are swarming
And it's getting too loud
(These thoughts are swarming.And it's getting too loud)
I've been tired so long
l've made a mess
Of my life
Yeah baby I'm ****ing a wreck
All the nights
That I'll spend yeah wide awake
And if I'm being honest
Babe I'm not okay
l don't know
lf I'll ever understand
The things in this life
That tell me I should be a man
Cause my heart
Yeah It's just way to soft
Throw me away
Like they don't know what I've got
Tired of all the times that I can't take back
Tired of the lies I just wanna hear the facts
Tired of everything I'm getting too sad
I don't wanna feel all these feelings come back
I don't wanna let go of my own heart
But here lately all l do is fall apart
Wanna take my car and drive away too far
But it'll never be far enough for these scars