holy ghost

I'm always running my mouth
And never thinking of you
Not good at thinking it through
Don't want this fear to consume
The thoughts in my head
I'm ****ing trying my best
I know you don't think I am
But there's a lot in my chest
And you don't know
These feelings like I do
I swear this pain is nothing new
And you don't know
When I'm with you I feel the most
It's time I face the holy ghost
I'm so sorry it's not perfect anymore
But I'm holding on to how I hurt before
And I'm sorry it's not how it used to be
I can't help you, I can barely help me
Try harder, I know it's all that I can give
My martyr, I'll bury myself just to let you live
And you don't know
These feelings like I do
I swear this pain is nothing new
And you don't know
When I'm with you I feel the most
It's time I face the holy ghost