Midlife Crisis

I drew the four of pentacles,
Yesterday when I did my tarot,
She says I've been holding on too long,
If I wanna grow I've got to move on
I didn't want to write about you but,
If I wanna be brand new you're,
One of the things I need to let be,
I already know you don't think of me,
No sweat off my back,
I think I'm gonna have a hard attack,
This new midlife crisis,
Is not how I thought it'd be
Two decades now,
Done living in my mortal flesh,
This will be the year I flex
Two decades now,
Living in my mortal flesh,
You ain't even see me yet
I'll be pulling a biddy in the summer,
98 degrees by the pool drinking,
trying to beat this heatwave,
I don't need a bowl,
what you trying to smoke,
Say you're cutting down,
but we know that it's a joke
We'll be high till the,
end of our day
Truly looking back,
I know I'm on the right path,
This new midlife crisis,
Turned out to be a blessing,
Two decades now,
Done living in my mortal flesh,
This will be the year I flex
Two decades now,
Living in my mortal flesh,
You ain't even see me yet