Better Than

Don't wanna get ahead of myself
But I can't help it, can't forget how it felt
Life looking out from the back of the shelf
Playing it cool, tryna' catch my breath
Still I'm running in circles half of the time and the other half wondering why

Fingers crossed behind my back
Hoping that this time I won't crack
Under the weight, I'm feeling like a wreck
But when I look at myself, I know I'm better than

Last year when I disappeared
Shaken up and full of fear
It took a while for me to get back up
Back up, get myself back together
It's like we're going one step forward, two steps back
It's like we're going one step forward, two steps back

Don't wanna make a fool out of myself
But I just haven't seen proof there was nothing left out
Words hanging loose from the roof of my mouth
Playing it cool while I hold my breath
Still I'm swimming in circles half of the time and the other half wondering why

History repeats itself
I still can't get out my shell
And I can feel the pressure on my chest
But when I look at myself, I know I'm better than

Last year when I disappeared
Shaken up and full of fear
It took a while for me to get back up
Back up, get myself back together
It's like we're going one step forward, two steps back
It's like we're going one step forward, two steps back