Confessional

编曲 : 邓泽西
你能猜着吗？
创作时间：2020.11.18-2:37
我是个自私易怒的弱者
Guess what?
不思进取
Peevish and selfish I am
脑壳化了
no tryin‘ no steppin‘ ahead
我是个自负脆弱的小人
Brain rot
活在泡影
pretentious and fragile I am
梦中假象保持着怪诞的平静
livin’ in an illusory land
我知道它们终有一日会支离破碎
This eerie calm is a fake gloss
风暴将至
I know they’ll be battered into to pieces
我早该整装迎战
The storm is coming right now
但我无动于衷
Picking up my weapon I gonna face it
明知道如此却无动于衷
But I remain impervious
我不是圣人先知
But I remain unmoved
但我知道是什么让我失败
I ain’t no sage or prophetess
有时我多恨你
But I know what my failure will due to
恨你的善良和自信
Who I hate is you
但我眼前总是你
For your kindness and confidence
你的智慧和敏锐
But all I see is you
攻击别人非我本意
For your insight and promptness
但隐藏的恶意会陡然出现
Attacking others is not my original intention
罢了，我只是一个活在想象中
I just hate this crop up notion from these vicious hidden emotions
为了不尴尬而设法打趣的人
That’s me, a sad one living in imagination
不会讲话就不要讲
eventually, a bad one playing well to the gallery
没有想法就不要想
Don’t talk if you can’t talk
快从床上坐起来啊
Don’t think if you can’t think
你空空的大脑就快死了
Get up from your damn bed
我最擅长的是浪费时间
Empty head is already dead
躺在床上度过浑噩的昼夜
My strength is wasting time
世界在飞速运转
Thus things flow away day and night
而我被排除在外
Everything in existence’s running wild
兜兜转转不知道在干啥
Leaving me outside waiting to die
我的理想世界是如何
I feel like I’m walking in circle
你们说什么就是什么
Where’s my life goal
被车轮带起的泥都比我走得快
Whatever you say is right
接下来做什么
Mud carried by wheels runs faster
不知道
What’s you after
饭不能不吃 工作不能不做
l....right
视线焦点不能离 那是唯一的镇定剂
Can’t get wayward to runaway and quit my day job
你知道吗？那天之后我重振旗鼓
Dive into river to camp it up and get my real pod
打算做个好人、努力当个强者
After that day I dusted myself down
原来积极向上也没那么难
trying to becoming the strong n’ put’ting my armor on
我看着天边燃烧的云彩五味杂陈
oh...get positive is not that hard
璀璨的暮光终会暗淡沉寂
mixed melody overwhelms my heart
万籁俱寂时闪耀的是星辰
The twilight will merge into the dark
我焦虑不安着却因此而鲜活
Bitter cold and bright stars
“你一直希望自己勇敢而真实
Anxiety as my part
那么现在做个深呼吸
“You always wanted to be brave and true
用猛烈的孤独,开始你伟大的历险”
So breathe deeply now
and begin your great adventure with crushing solitude”