Smiling on the outside but trouble brews within
if only you knew how dark that it gets
I’ve got it all figured out right?
But I’m haunted by sin
choices I made that won’t let me live
my house is filled with everything I want from wall-to-wall
I’d give it all back to hear my daughter talk
evil autism left me with the deepest scar
it’s taking everything I got not to fall apart
and when I’m at my best I feel I’m falling off
depression creeping in and messing with the bars
sometimes I stay in the house and I don’t leave at all
that’s also when I create best I’m feeling torn
when I’m at my best I feel I’m falling off
depression creeping in and messing with the bars/sometimes I stay in the house and I don’t leave at all
that’s also when I create best I’m feeling torn
I guess you can say I made it out
with trust issues, I helped people never the other way around suffered in silence I didn’t make a sound
I guess it’s my fault for never reaching out
I still cop Henny and crush the whole bottle
some look up to me but I am not your role model
I don’t got all the answers I got my own problems
there’s a lot of business I prefer to keep my nose out of
my son is 17 now real life is just starting
the scary thing is his love for money just like his father
I can’t help but feel that something I’m a big part of
I know he heard the stories I pray he doesn’t get caught up
in the lifestyle
judge me by what I’m doing right now
I showed you legal money could buy a house
relieved a lot of pressure when I put that life down
it’s not easy but I sacrifice proud
my thoughts go beyond working just to pay the rent
I make my boss a quarter mill I see 12%
you think that I appreciate it looking at how well I live/but I can’t help but want more, is it selfishness?
when I’m at my best I feel I’m falling off
depression creeping in and messing with the bars
sometimes I stay in the house and I don’t leave at all
that’s also when I create best I’m feeling torn
when I’m at my best I feel I’m falling off
depression creeping in and messing with the bars
sometimes I stay in the house and I don’t leave at all
that’s also when I create best I’m feeling torn
Becoming successful can be stressful thoughts get dark you find yourself in a cesspool
quittings not an option because you know what that gets you
the ceiling don’t exist there’s more levels to get to
sometimes you lack confidence that’s how I get to
look no further the answer is always within you
lessons learned we persevere through the knowledge
there’s never been a problem that I couldn’t conquer
hardest battles to his strongest soldiers never doubt it
the forecast will pass when you feel your vision is cloudy
sometimes I close my eyes and I remember jail
it was overcrowded I slept on the floor in my cell
it was short time but that year made me feel
I had to change for good and I did that so I prevail
you never know how strong you are until being strong is all you have then you realize it was in you all along
I know my family is here for me so it’s God above
I’m a work in progress all I need is love
so now when I’m at my best, I know it’s just that
all my pain is gone I left it all on this track
Dark Clouds