Can't Believe I Had You

I'm finding it hard to live with myself--
我发现自己很难接受
this grief, and the mistakes I have made.
我的悲伤，我所犯的错误
I've been trying to find the words to say to you.
我一直想找些话对你说
But as the days come to an end, I--
但是随着日子的结束
I just sit and lay with my head in my hands.
我只是坐在那里，双手抱着头躺着
Staring out into a world where nothing stares back at me
凝视着外面的世界
apart from a memory of you.
那里除了对你记忆，没有任何其他的
You were my best friend, my savior, my soulmate.
你是我最好的朋友，我的救世主，我的灵魂伴侣
You were everything to me.
你是我的一切
I know that everything we once knew has changed
我知道我们曾经了解的一切都改变了
and that you no longer see me as the person I once was;
你不再把我看作过去的那个我
but, that person is still here.
但是，过去的那个人，过去的那个我仍在这里
There is a burden in being misunderstood.
被误解是一种负担
A burden I carry with me every day.
这是我每天都要背负的负担
And I know it sounds over the top but, you were the only one who ever understood me.
我知道这听起来有点夸张，但你是唯一一个懂我的人
I can't believe I had you, and I hope that one day, you forgive me.
但我还是不敢相信我已经拥有了你，我希望有一天，你能真正对我既往不咎
I'll never, ever forget you.
我永远不会忘记你