No One Knows

Yeah, feels like I'm losing myself
是啊，感觉我快失去自我了
Feels like I'm losing myself
感觉我好像失去了自我
Why am I dooming myself
我为什么要毁了自己
The **** did I do to myself
我对自己做了什么
Should've been true to myself
应该对我自己说实话
Dumb to think you would've helped
愚蠢到以为你会帮忙
Dumb to think you would've helped
愚蠢到以为你会帮忙
Feels like I'm brewing in Hell
感觉我在地狱里酝酿
Feels like I'm brewing in Hell
感觉我在地狱里酝酿
Can't be hard for you to tell, uh
你很难说，呃
Stuck in a slump and I keep climbing up
陷入了困境，我一直往上爬
I just turned 25 feels like my time is up
我刚满25岁就觉得时间到了
Feels like everyone's sus and it's harder to trust
感觉每个人都是我们，更难相信
And I can't shake the gut feeling
我无法动摇我的直觉
I'm feeling like there's a knife in my gut
我觉得我肚子里有把刀
And that's a gut feeling
这是一种直觉
When you know deep down that the real person you love
当你内心深处知道你爱的人
Is dooming you that's why I left
这就是我离开的原因
No don't get upset when you see me 'cause I didn't wanna give you up
不，当你看到我的时候别生气，因为我不想放弃你
And it's ****ed to think for you I wasn't enough
为你想想我还不够
I just wanted your love but you wanted
我只是想要你的爱，但你想要
There's some nights I wanna go and get hella drunk
有些晚上我想去把他灌醉
So everything I was feeling could turn into numb
所以我感觉到的一切都会变得麻木
Addicted to you, you're my favorite drug
对你上瘾了，你是我最喜欢的毒品
I buy your lies, you're my favorite plug
我相信你的谎言，你是我最喜欢的
Sometimes at night I will stare up above
有时晚上我会抬头仰望
And wish under a star that I wasn't so dumb
希望我不是那么蠢
Why does it even matter, shit I didn't matter
为什么这很重要，妈的，我不在乎
I built up my hope just for it to get shattered
我建立了我的希望，只是希望它破灭
I'm always alone with the thoughts that I gather
我总是独自一人思考我收集的思想
I flip through my thoughts it's a terrible pattern
我把我的思想翻了个底朝天，这是一个可怕的模式
As if flipping through 'em will lead me to answers
好像翻阅一下就能找到答案
I try to move forward, but keep going backwards
我试着向前走，但总是向后走
I hide all my pain behind smiles and laughter
我把所有的微笑和痛苦都藏在我的笑容后面
Where no one knows that I'm a wild disaster, ****
我不知道这是什么灾难
Give my all
全给我
Oh, I wanna walk away
哦，我想走开
I'm living like a ghost
我活得像鬼一样
And no one ever knows
没人知道
See me fall
看着我倒下
Oh, I knew that I would break
哦，我知道我会崩溃的
I'm living like a ghost
我活得像鬼一样
But no one ever knows
但没人知道
Always alone I wish someone could see me
总是一个人我希望有人能看见我
I lay in my bed staring up at the ceiling
我躺在床上仰望天花板
Talking to myself until I'm overthinking
自言自语直到我过度思考
I'm home all alone no one knows that I'm weeping
我一个人在家没人知道我在哭
I swear my whole life is so ****ing deceiving
我发誓我的一生都是如此的欺骗
And I stand for broke with the checks I'm receiving
我拿着我收到的支票代表破产
My money can't buy the family I'm needing
我的钱买不起我需要的家庭
My money can't heal the agony I'm feeling
我的钱无法治愈我的痛苦
I need someone to love to me, someone to hug me
我需要一个爱我的人，一个拥抱我的人
Someone to be there when my mind gets ugly
当我的思想变得丑陋的时候有人在那里
I swear they really think my life is stunning
我发誓他们真的认为我的生活很精彩
Bro I come home to absolutely nothing
老兄，我一无所有
I'm just a lonely guy loaded with money
我只是一个孤独的有钱人
Nobody told me my days won't be sunny
没人告诉我我的日子不好过
I'm bleeding on people who didn't cut me
我在为那些没割我的人流血
So when they leave me, they leave 'cause they bloody
所以当他们离开我的时候，他们离开是因为他们血腥
I have issues with women, I'm so co-depended
我和女人有矛盾，我太依赖女人了
I can't love myself, so I need her to give it
我不能爱自己，所以我需要她付出
And that's always where my self-worth is depicted
这就是我自我价值的体现
And that's why I date women so narcissistic
这就是为什么我和女人约会如此自恋
My mind is a mess and it's always conflicted
我的脑子一团糟，总是矛盾重重
And lately it's been hard to make a decision
最近很难做出决定
And it pains me that I finally admit it
我终于承认了，这让我很痛苦
I've been suicidal and trying not to end it, ****
我一直有自杀的念头，并试图不结束它
Give my all
全力以赴
Oh, I wanna walk away
哦，我想走开
I'm living like a ghost
我活得像鬼一样
And no one ever knows
没人知道
See me fall
看着我倒下
Oh, I knew that I would break
哦，我知道我会崩溃的
I'm living like a ghost
我活得像鬼一样
But no one ever knows
但没人知道
I'm saddened to think people that think that I'm reaching
我很难过那些认为我正在接触的人
And that is the reason I feel what I'm feeling
这就是为什么我能感受到我的感受
I may have some fame, but it's pain that I'm reaping
我也许有些名气，但我正在收获的是痛苦
I been praying to God asking Him for a healing
我一直在向上帝祈祷，求他医治我
Man, I need my mom, I need my dad
伙计，我需要我妈妈，我需要我爸爸
I need the family we never had
我需要我们从未有过的家庭
Our family's broken, I'm feeling hopeless
我们的家庭破裂了，我感到绝望
Nobody notice I'm in a trance
没人注意到我在发呆
All I have is my daughter I stare in her eyes
我只有女儿我盯着她的眼睛
And I break down all I do is provide
我把我所做的一切都分解了
How can I give her a family life
我怎么能给她一个家庭生活
When it's just me and her every night, ****
每天晚上只有我和她
Yo, this shit is too much
哟，这狗屎太多了
I'm single-handedly killing my buzz
我一个人在消磨我的嗡嗡声
I don't make music 'cause I'm in a rut
我不做音乐是因为我太单调了
And all of the stress of it is making me numb
所有的压力都让我麻木了
Why do I dream of a Grammy I'm winning
为什么我梦见我要赢的格莱美奖
When I don't have a family to celebrate with me
当我没有家人和我一起庆祝的时候
Look there is no bullshit excuse that you could give me
听着，你不能给我一个胡说八道的借口
To make me feel like my damn life is worth living
让我觉得我的生命值得活下去
I swear loneliness is a cancer within me
我发誓孤独是我内心的毒瘤
I'm searching for friends 'cause my family's missing
我在找朋友因为我的家人失踪了
This shit is exhausting, I'm thinking of quitting
这件事太累人了，我在考虑辞职
And maybe the end for me is a new beginning
也许对我来说，结束是一个新的开始
Give my all
全力以赴
Oh, I wanna walk away
哦，我想走开
I'm living like a ghost
我活得像鬼一样
And no one ever knows
没人知道
See me fall
看着我倒下
Oh, I knew that I would break
哦，我知道我会崩溃的
I'm living like a ghost
我活得像鬼一样
But no one ever knows
但没人知道