How It Feels To Feel Nothing

Yeah
I know I ain't been myself lately
I been feeling like I need help lately
Feel like all the people I've needed just left me
When they ain't need me
So I just keep to myself lately
Some people are damaged before they know it
Some people are broken but they don't show it
Memories burning, my heart is frozen, but
I'm only human don't judge me, yeah, I'm still growing
I mean, its hard to love
When your hearts been bruised in the past
Your soul broken, your scared of being attached
And everybody just acts like they understand
We all have that one person we wish we had, but
Times change, people change, I'm still the same
Just some things you won't understand 'til you feel the pain
Our love burned like a fire in a storm
Knew it wouldn't last but at least it kept us warm
I mean, you know me, I know I wasn't the only
I know I wasn't the one you just loved me
'Cause you were lonely
But ****
I used to be so in love with being alive
But these days
I just think of the fact that one day I'll die
And these people will just forget about me
The ones that act like they gave a **** about me
As soon as I turn my back, talking **** about me
But I need love even if it's fake so they still around me
They still around me it's clear
What if I disappeared?
What if I just said **** this life I don't wanna be here?
What if I take these pills I don't wake up from my sleep?
Sometimes wish I could have a conversation with Peep
A conversation with Mac, maybe they feel how I feel
Too caught up in the pain, but we forget that it heals
Yeah well, I've got a busy mind and an empty soul
And I'm stuck between running back or just letting go
She sins like a devil, but, loves like an angel
If you see what I see, she's beautiful, every angle, yeah
You see I put my emotions all on the table
But why is it the people with the most blessings
That's never grateful, damn
Loves like an angel, if you see what I see,
She's beautiful, every angle yeah
All on the table but why is it the people
With the most blessings that's never grateful, I mean
Yeah they say true love don't ever grow apart
They say you can't break a broken heart
They say it hurts until you feel nothing
So I take these drugs until I feel something
They say true love don't ever grow apart
They say you can't break a broken heart
They say it hurts until you feel nothing
So I just hide from these feelings and I'm still running
I'm still running I'm just