i don't wanna grow up anymore

I don't know which way to go now
What's the point when nobody cares about me?
I hate walking down this street
I keep staring at my feet
'Cause I'm scared that they look at me
And they'll see my face
I can't explain why I'm feeling this way
But I know I'm hurting
I don't know what I'm learning
What the **** am I learning?
'Cause I ****ed up
I ****ed it
Rather run away than confront it
All the past times I said that I loved it
Now I've grown up it's disgusting
'Cause I ****ed up
I ****ed it
Rather run away than confront it
All the past times I said that I loved it
Now I've grown up it's disgusting
It's just me, myself and I
Tryna figure out my life
I don't care about the others
Why the **** should I reply?
I'm so sick of this shit
Sometimes I wish I could die
I'm so scared of growing up and dealing with a normal life
I don't know what to do
When there is nothing in my view
I don't havе a planned career
I don't even havе a clue
Just my blood, sweat and tears
I've been searching hard for years
I'm so scared of waking up and finding that my time is near
Why is everything in my life so hard?
I can't even see the stars in the dark
I can only see the scars in my heart
My heart
Why is everything in my life so hard?
I can't even see the stars in the dark
I can only see the scars in my heart
My heart