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编曲 : CL
Prod. by CL
Mix by Goatbaby
这不是那种念旧爱的情歌
This sure as hell ain’t some “Kiki, do you love me” shit
因为我感觉女方应该不会想念旧
Cause I guess it ain’t pleasant for the lady a bit
我对于情感的理想构思曾经也有些激进
My idealism in relationships was radical
有点冒险和天真 也就自然没有好果子
Rather bold and naive so the consequences were tragical
我过去相信爱是无坚不摧的
I used to believe that love was unstoppable
你们彼此照应就没有什么不可能
You had each other’s back and nothing would be impossible
不幸的是 那个女孩直接把幻想打破
Unfortunately this girl broke my fantasy
一有事情不对她马上把我扔下跑了
The moment something’s wrong she immediately abandoned me
倒不是怪谁 我们那时都不够坚强
Nobody’s fault we both could’ve been stronger
我自己的焦虑症状也一直都困扰着我
My anxiety disorder has always been a haunter
你是我爱过最深的人
You’re the one that I loved the hardest
但为何我每次想起你都想起了我们彼此伤害的记忆
But why every time I think of you I think of the moments that we be hurtin’ each other
我曾经心被绞碎 但我恢复了也成长了
I was torn to pieces now I’m back and grown
写着这些歌 希望多少有个人能懂
Got me writing all these songs hoping someone can relate to
我猜我对你也只能是感恩
I guess all I can do is to be grateful
同时也期望着你没有再心怀忿恨
And all I hope is you ain’t disgraceful or hateful
已经这么长时间了我还在寻找
It’s been a long time and I’m still searching
还在寻找
Still searching...
我也有几次被拒之门外
I've been rejected ‘couple times
回想起那些时候 我发现我一直都在全力寻找
When I look back I realize I’m so desperate to find
一个可以依靠的肩膀 我是个操作激光的少校（cue Major Lazer的Lean On）
A shoulder to lean on, I’m a major wielding lasers
咄咄逼人因为缺乏安全感 不过还是有的是人喷我
Aggressive ‘cause I’m insecure but still get the haters
我夏天和另外一个女孩尝试在一起
I tried to work it out with another girl last summer
她有她的一些问题 但我绝对是很理解她
She has her own issues and I swear that I can get her
我把她搂在怀里 说“我们应该让现状变好”
I held her in my arms saying “We should make it better”
但改变不是她想要的 我们也就没走下去
But that ain’t what she wants so we didn’t stay together
我每次受过伤都会有新的领悟
Every time I was broken I learn something new
每天我都想和一个
Every day I’m hoping to be with someone who
关心我的事情 希望我好的人在一起
Cares ‘bout my affairs as well as my welfare
她能站在我的角度 理解我做的决定
Understanding my decisions as if she’s been there
Tupac说过“好事将眷顾那些保持真我的人”
Pac said “Good comes to those who stay true”
这就是我在做的 我也在等待着你
That’s what I’m doing and I’ve got to wait for you
Tupac说过“好事将眷顾那些保持真我的人”
Pac said “Good comes to those who stay true”
我也一直在准备着
I’m still preparing for the day you
你出现的那一天
Show up
已经这么长时间了我还在寻找
It’s been a long time and I’m still searching
还在寻找
Still searching...
爱
...For love.