Late Nights & Heartbreak

Why do I find it so hard to love you?
When I know in my heart that I want to?
I've been putting you down when you aren't around
I'm letting you down every day
I've been messing around when you're out of town
Why do I keep on running away?
I'm a part time lover and I'm never there
I find it hard to believe you don't want it to end
I'll be changing my tune when you walk in the room
I'll be fixing the look on my face
I'm gonna get close to you, give my loving to you
At least until you're going away
I know that I'm not good
I'm never gonna treat you like I should
I've heard that all of the boys think you're crazy
When I treat you so bad, why do you want me?
I've heard that all of the girls are starting to hate me
For stealing your heart and treating you badly
It doesn't hurt anymore when you walk through the door
I forget every word that you said
And I can't put you down when no one else is around
And when you're gone, you're getting replaced
I know that I'm not good
I'm never gonna treat you, never gonna treat you like I should
I'm a part time lover