Not Gonna Cry

I know it's not supposed to be easy
Pouring out the bottled up feelings
But I didn't think it would be this hard
Walking to school with a broken heart
And the jacket around my waist feels stupid
I don't know why the hell we do this
Saying I'm sorry like I'm the one
Who's picking us apart for fun
Why am I feeling like this
Why am I feeling like s**t
Why am I all in pieces
I don't even need this oh-oh
Why am I on the bedroom floor
With paranoia and painkillers
Washing away all these feelings
But I know I know I know
I'm not gonna cry for you
Choking all these thoughts I'm thinking
You're a cigarette and I'm quitting
But I know I know I know
I'm not gonna cry for you
I'm not gonna cry for you
You smell of cigarette and perfume
No one f**ks me up like you do
And maybe you thought I would play along
I'd rather be dancing on my own
Do you really think that I'm stupid
Of course I heard all the rumors
But all of the grenades you threw
They just made me bulletproof
I'm done with feeling like this
Done with feeling like s**t
Done with being in pieces
I don't even need this oh-oh
I'm done with laying on the floor
With paranoia and painkillers
Washing away all these feelings
But I know I know I know
I'm not gonna cry for you
Choking all these thoughts I'm thinking
You're a cigarette and I'm quitting
But I know I know I know
I'm not gonna cry for you
I'm not gonna cry for you
I'm not gonna cry for you
I'm not gonna cry for you