Coping Mechanism

I feel this weight on my shoulder
我感到肩上负担的沉重
I know I’m only getting older
也知道我只是在徒增年岁
Sift through my pain for some closure
梳理我的痛苦，找寻些许解脱
So I write these songs for you
因此我为你写这首歌
Don’t be afraid of me
别害怕我
Yeah I failed you too many times
虽然我的确负你太多
Something was changed in me
我已不再是从前的我
I had a bit of hole of this on my heart
心里的伤口微小却久难愈合
And it was strange to me
世界如此奇异而冷漠
I gotta get hold of all of this now
我必须开始学会掌控全局
So I can cope, cope, cope
从而得以应对自如，游刃有余
I get so stressed out sometimes
生活重压之下我总心烦意乱
I just sit in and stare at the wall
只是坐在那里盯着空白墙面发呆
Nervous
焦灼不安
Wake up in puddles and sweat
眼角含泪，一身冷汗，从睡梦中醒来
and I don’t know who else I can call
不知还能打电话给谁，除你之外
I just
我只有
Go through it
默默经受
The only way I know how
我知道唯一的解决方案
(The only way I know how…)
那是我唯一的解决方案
I need to find a way that I can cope
我必须找到一种能够自如应对的方法
Without being stressed out by highs and the lows
不会再让生活的起起落落左右心情
And things I can’t change
那些我无力改变的
Things I don’t want to
想要摆脱的
And things I don’t need to
不再需要的
Hey…
嘿…
It’s all in my head
它们都在我的脑海中盘旋
(It’s all in my head)
它们都在我的脑海中盘旋
I need to find a way to cope
我要找到方法来自如应对
It’s never really easy when you think that you were choked
这太困难，尤其当你在种种打击之下心烦意乱
It’s never really easy when you know you’re gonna choke
这太困难，尤其当你清楚面临的仍是重重阻拦
All these people rising up and you try to stay afloat
人皆步步高升，你却还在勉力维持周转
I’m at the bottom of the ocean
我仿佛被抛弃在万丈海底
Bottled up emotion
强压住内心汹涌的浪涛
Try to let it out but it’s causing a commotion
我也试过宣泄，却引发一场海啸
Coping mechanism is something that ain’t simple
建立应对机制并不简单
I try to be a saint but my wasted stain sinful
我想当个圣徒，行过的路却是罪恶的污迹遍满
I need to find a way to live another day
只想知道如何才能好好生活下去
People around me change and I’m the one to blame
身边人来了又走，全是我自作自受
And I can’t tell if I
我不知道是否能够
Only had a moment in time to rewind
求得片刻喘息，让记忆中的时光倒流
I need to find a way that I can cope
只想知道如何才能自如应对
Without being stressed out by highs and the lows
不会再让生活的起起落落左右心情
And things I can’t change
那些我无力改变的
Things I don’t want to
想要摆脱的
And things I don’t need to
不再需要的
Hey…
嘿…
It’s all in my head
它们都在我的脑海中盘旋
It’s all in my head
它们都在我的脑海中盘旋
Yeah. Who else I’m supposed to call
嗯，我还能打电话给谁呢
I didn’t burn every bridge in any ways
我并未斩断我们之间的一切联系
I don’t know why you still pick up my call when the telephone rings
不知为何每次铃声响起，电话另一端的你还会接通
If you hate seeing my name
你不是再也不愿看到我的名字吗
I know you took me out of your contacts
我知道你早已把我从通讯录里删除
It took a lot for me to take you out of context
我鼓足全部勇气才把你的角色从我的故事里抹除
You showed me life that was cold and with drought
这冰冷而枯涸的人间你带我看过
Now I’m the one left standing here, holding the gun
如今只剩下我站在原地，手中的枪紧握
It was my fault
是我的错
I got this faulty coping mechanisms
我的应对机制大错特错
You shouldered down my pain and I never gave you recognition
你曾替我分担痛苦，我却从未给你认可
For the things you helped me through
你助我渡过难关我却无动于衷
And all this love I took for granted
你爱我用尽全力我视作理所当然
I was living in the past
当时的我沉浸在过往有恃无恐
I never saw you in the present
当时的我身边有你却从未把你珍重
The future means I’m ready to press on
未来在召唤我坚定向前
I hold it in and hold it high up in the back of my head
封存感情于内心深处，如旧物高搁货架上面
I’m thinking about the future you would have me holding you back
我想到我们不复存在的未来，你本会被我耽误
And I would be the sh*t out of this thing in my chest
大概我就是个废物
And I know I need to find a way——
我深知我需要找到一种解决方案
A way that I can cope
让我得以自如应对
Without being stressed out by highs and the lows
不会再让生活的起起落落左右心情
And things I can’t change
那些我无力改变的
Things I don’t want to
想要摆脱的
And things I don’t need to
不再需要的
Hey…
嘿…
It’s all in my head
它们都在我的脑海中盘旋
It’s all in my head
它们都在我的脑海中盘旋
I feel this weight on my shoulder
我感到肩上负担的沉重
I know I’m only getting older
也知道我只是在徒增年岁
Sift through my pain for some closure
痛苦之中我亦感到稍许解脱
So I write these songs for you
所以我为你写这首歌。