Fulfillment?

I'll take my shit out of the box
I guess
It's too late to feel so loss
I bet
All this seems to kind of drag
Behind in my red wagon ride
Just relax
Lighten the load of all the things that make me want to gag
Get rid of the you and me and him and her and this and that
Kicking and screaming
Pulling the things that made me happiest
I stay awake
Just me and my cherry radio flyer
Dreaming of all the ways we'll push higher
Hoping that one of these days feels a bit lighter
And i hope i'll find
Something
To live for, for
Stop for a second
Take a breath
Learn a lesson
Staring at the walls for something new
In my mind I'm living in the zoo
Tryna pet the animals
Just step back
Lighten the load of all the things that i don't have to pack
Would it be wrong if i just chose to leave it here?
Like my sandals
And my sunscreen
Or my passport
And my daydreams
****, i don't need my daydreams
I stay awake
One foot in front of then next on the wire
Praying if there's a god
I don't look down now!
Praying this is the day
I get it right now?
Oh right now hope i'll
Find
Something
To live for, for
Hope I'll find
Something
To live for, for
Before i long got for ya
Don't look down
Don't look down
Don't look down
Don't look