not okay

To date I don't really wanna be alive
But, I try even though that don't mean I'm alright
So baby picka side, I just wanna see you choose a side
Baby pick a side, I just wanna see you lose tonight
Yeah
I'm so f*ckin' done with this everyone's done
And I hope you have fun lil b*tch
Getting rich and now I don't gotta stun lil b*tch
Why did it come to this
Why did it come to this
Why did it come
Being pushed from the outside to the inside
Take more, why didn't you try, why did I try
Done for, why did I cry, why did you cry
Run for what you want
Run for your f*ckin' life
Run 'fore your f*ckin' die
Run, run, run, run, run, run
Just to stay alive
None, none, none, none, none
Can't keep me alive
So I gotta keep my self alright
I promise you this time, I won't try suicide
Why, why did you take her from me
Why, why am I off ecstasy
Why, yeah is sh*t part of the dream
I, I can't see a thing
You see me the tears when you're up in my brain
I didn't change what the f*ck I'm the same
All of my demons I had to go and tame, yeah
But them in the song so you hear my pain, yeah
This sh*t ain't insane, her voice in my brain, yeah
I don't do cocaine, but I might today, yeah
Need to find a place I can hibernate
You need to find a place you can hide from me
I'm so f*cked up it's just us and my mental
Feel like I f*ck my life I might go crash a rental
Hate the way she treat me, I feel sh*t, oh
Feel like all of your friends is on my dick, cool
Why you in a bad mood, a bad mood
She say she want a tattoo of my room
I had to give bad news, that we're through
Never made me feel love and that's cool
All I showed you was some real and that's true
Get that lil b*tch a real dog, b*tch f*ck you
When I talk but b*tch ass still talk so
I might shoot yeah for that b*tches
Run my money until all of it blows
To date I don't really wanna be alive
But, I try even though that don't mean I'm alright
So baby picka side, I just wanna see you choose a side
Baby picka side, I just wanna see you lose tonight
Yeah
I'm so f*ckin' done with this everyone's done
And I hope you have fun lil b*tch
Getting rich and now I don't gotta stun lil b*tch
Why did it come to this
Why did it come to this
Why did it come
Being pushed from the outside to the inside
Take more, why didn't you try, why did I try
Done for, why did I cry, why did you cry
Run for what you want
Run for your f*ckin' life
Run 'fore your f*ckin' die
Run, run, run, run, run, run
Just to stay alive
None, none, none, none, none
Can't keep me alive
So I gotta keep my self alright
I promise you this time, I won't try suicide