self sabotage

I know you wanna see me, suffocate
It's been so hard for me to, concentrate
Yeah, I break it down and watch, it all decay
I wish these stupid thoughts would, go away

I could help but I choose not
Screaming out from the rooftops
Thinking bout the time that you lost
Happy it's over, but at what cost?
I could help but I choose not
Screaming out from the rooftops
Thinking bout the time that you lost
Happy it's over, but at what cost?

I know she not in love with me, she in love with drugs
Ayy, you keep on poppin' X and O's, don't want no kiss and hugs
Tryna get me jealous, postin' shit, bitch, I don't give a ****
She said that I've been her favorite one, please don't make me blush
Actin' like a bad bitch
I've been on my own, yeah, I've been tryna break these habits
I don't want your love, yeah, you can have it
Ayy, hit me up and ask me what I'm on, I just won't respond
Pray to God they don't get me involved , I'll just play along

But that's exactly what you want me to do
You wanna stop me? Go ahead, make a move
Runnin' out of time
One day, I hope you'll be mine

(No, I can't stomach it)
(No, I can't)
(When I fall)
(I'm hoping I land)

I could help but I choose not
Screaming out from the rooftops
Thinking bout the time that you lost
Happy it's over, but at what cost?
I could help but I choose not
Screaming out from the rooftops
Thinking bout the time that you lost
Happy it's over, but at what cost?