Letter to Mom

I wrote my mother yesterday cause I had some things that I had to say
and I know that when she reads them shes gonna cry
But in the end I hope she sees
that Im just trying to break free
cause Ive been walking round with secrets now, too long
Back when I was barely ten Mom brought home a new boyfriend
and I know that times were bad and he made her feel good
but one night he climbed into my bed
and he left me wishing I was dead
and Ive been walking round with secrets now, too long
You say Im digging up the past and its not wise to go back
but for me its just as close as yesterday
and Im not the kind for breaking rules
and Im not wanting to be cruel
Ive just been walking round with secrets now, too long
All my life Ive felt ashamed, cause I thought I was the one to blame
and I vowed to God that no one else would ever know
how he crushed my childish pride
and left me tears that never dried
and Ive been walking round with secrets now, too long
You say Im digging up the past and its not wise to go back
but for me its just as close as yesterday
and Im not the kind for breaking rules
and Im not wanting to be cruel
Ive just been walking round with secrets now, too long
and Ive just been walking round with secrets now, too long