錄製：HPC魷魚
混音：WTZ
編曲：Jane beatz production
和聲編寫：D1WHY
封面：D1WHY
【intro】
Hello, you there? listen
嗨，你在嗎？聽著
This is not some hypx $hxt
這不是危言聳聽
This is not something Im proud to talk about
這也不是什麼值得炫耀的事
because you don t know what it feels like,It feels like. failure
你不明白這種感覺，就像是一無是處
【Hook】
You said you wanna read whats my real mind
你說你想明白我的真實想法
Depression made me wanna suicide
絕望讓我難以呼吸
I didnt know whats right cause too many lies
不知何為正確因為謊言纏身
Devil said death or life I couldnt choose
惡魔說死或生,我無法選擇
Dont make me drunk and high or waste my time
不要讓我醉生夢死浪費時間
I wanna go back to a real life
我想回到真實的世界
Please dont cover my eyes
請不要蒙蔽我的雙眼
I wanna see the shine
我想要看到不遠的光芒
【verse 1 (D1WHY)】
You got me feeling lifeless
你使我變得毫無生氣
My sadness went to another stage
我的沮喪已經到了另一個高度
As if my body was weightless
彷彿身體失重
The major weakness was exploited by bada$$
任人利用我的軟弱
I always say its nothingwrong
我總是說沒關係
Through you look down upon me
儘管你看不起我
My heart is like fallen leaf
實際上我的心如同地上的落葉
To be swept away is its destiny
被清掃是才它的命運
You called my phone said you really know where do I zone.
你給我打電話說你清楚我的立場
Im really tired and i just wanna go home
可是我真的很累我只想回家
But it seems to be going a wrong road
後來我似乎用了錯誤的方式
I lost myself in the steel jungle
逐漸我迷失在了這鋼鐵叢林
I told you something that I don't hope so
我告訴過你一些我不願意發生的事情
I don t wanna lose you
不想失去你
i suspect you know the main fact！
我以為你知道我歌裡寫給你的一切
Really: Nope!
事實上你並不知道
Its all that you want and more
你說現在這樣是你想要的結果
I 've nothing can lost
可我再沒什麼可失去的了
【verse2 （Siberpunk)】
Sometimes it feels like you drown and
有時感覺像是下墜
sometimes the whole system broke Down and
有時感覺整個心態都崩了
sometimes I think everyones a Clown
有時我認為每個人像小丑
And pretending nothings wrong while put that mask on.
戴上他們的面具，假裝沒有什麼問題
Saying, Sorry mom I cant cheer myself up.when the night approached, and darkness fell upon.
我說,對不起媽媽，每當黃昏臨近,夜幕籠罩,我感到特別難受
Wait, Can you tell Ronny shes my babe
等等,你能告訴羅妮我愛她嘛
But I fxxked up so hard, so we cant meet this week
但是我最近真的太忙了,這週沒法相見
god save me from myself never being in the right road
上帝救救我,我從未站到正確的位置
Accusing of making up shxt and assigned the wrong role
不明真相的人捏造事實,把我擺到了錯誤的位置
Straight up, be brave, all that pep talk
“站起來,堅強點”朋友都這樣對我說
this is not something you can shout out and shoot for
可這並不是我鼓起勇氣就能夠回應的
Im too proud I stayed in the bathroom while my lady cooking
當夫人在做飯，我待在浴室一個人哭
The demons talking, the neighbors dog forever barking
夢魘在低語,鄰居的狗叫個不停
Im like no one else but the man I despise
我覺得我變成了我最討厭的樣子，和別人都不一樣
cry under his eyes, didnt stand and put up a fight
在另一個自己眼皮下哭泣,無法反抗
Desolation, isolation, wanna fly above
荒涼,孤獨,快點飛走吧
She wxxped and cried, saying'I dont want nothing from you!
她哭泣著說:我沒想過從你身上得到什麼啊！
I said cut that shxt bxxch leave me alone
我說,離我遠點，我想一個人靜靜。
You should never say that when you love someone
當你愛一個人的時候，不該那樣對她
I get it, but hide yourself in some holes like a fxxking mole,started buried deep
我能理解，你像個無助的鼴鼠一樣躲在洞裡,開始深埋自己
How about try to help your friends in need
該如何幫助你患難的朋友
God save my soul, Hate to make my mamma sad
上帝救救我吧,我不想讓媽媽傷心
Guess Im doing everybodys favor if it went bang
若我的負面情緒消散,這對大家應該都有好處
【Hook】
You said you wanna read whats my real mind
你說你想明白我的真實想法
Depression made me wanna suicide
絕望讓我難以呼吸
I didnt know whats right cause too many lies
不知何為正確因為謊言纏身
Devil said death or life I couldnt choose
惡魔說死或生,我無法選擇
Dont make me drunk and high or waste my time
不要讓我醉生夢死浪費時間
I wanna go back to a real life
我想回到真實的世界
Please dont cover my eyes
請不要蒙蔽我的雙眼
I wanna see the shine
我想要看到不遠的光芒
【 verse 3 （D1WHY）】
repeated confession
不斷懺悔
A section of my session which fall apart with the affection
內心世界的一部分隨著自我影響分崩離析
Ive lost the direction
我迷失了自己
I cant be flex'in the face of sudden great pressure
突如其來的壓力無法自如應對
eh, ain t no time to wait
誒，沒法再等了
you said that I stayed up all night till daybreak
你說完後我徹夜未眠直到破曉
It made me crazy, I was love sick
我已經瘋了,我陷入思念
The current situation is hard to change
現狀因此難以改變
feeling like tape around my heart
彷彿身陷囚籠
Thats the worst part
那是最糟糕的時刻
They acted so tough
他們咄咄逼人
They called me trash
他們把我說的一無是處
My world was getting dark
我逐漸自閉
Am I out of touch and not strong enough?
我是否內心不夠強大變得難以接近?
Unwilling to sink down and hate to frown
我不願就此惆悵沉淪
Day after day, moreand more wrong
日復一日,越走越錯
I dont wanna curl up in a crummy corner
不想蜷縮在灰暗的角落
I wanna break it all like a violent thunder
要像雷霆一樣打破這不堪的一切
【Hook】
You said you wanna read whats my real mind
你說你想明白我的真實想法
Depression made me wanna suicide
絕望讓我難以呼吸
I didnt know whats right cause too many lies
不知何為正確因為謊言纏身
Devil said death or life I couldnt choose
惡魔說死或生,我無法選擇
Dont make me drunk and high or waste my time
不要讓我醉生夢死浪費時間
I wanna go back to a real life
我想回到真實的世界
Please dont cover my eyes
請不要蒙蔽我的雙眼
I wanna see the shine
我想要看到不遠的光芒
Rise of the fallen