Depression run inside of me
抑鬱在我體內蔓延
My constant fear and anxiety
我持續的恐懼和焦慮
I cannot pinpoint the reasons
我不能確定原因
Why I dont feel like part of society
為什麼我不覺得自己是社會的一部分
And I could try to take a look inside to figure out why
我可以試著看看裡面找出原因
I feel so hurt, why I lack self worth, why my lifes
我覺得很受傷為什麼我缺乏自我價值為什麼我的生活
been pain since the day of my birth
從我出生那天起就一直很痛苦
And I still feel worse when the pain returns
疼痛再次出現時我還是覺得更糟
Too many things in my mind I can't figure out
我腦子裡有太多事情想不明白
All the times you would yell cuss each other out
每次你們大喊大叫互相咒罵
You don't care about the demons in my mind
你根本不在乎我心中的惡魔
Cuz you had your own demons in you all this time
因為一直以來你心中都有自己的惡魔
And you never asked why my b *tches know smiles
你從沒問過我為什麼我的知道微笑
Why I ran for miles
為什麼我要跑好幾英里
Why I changed my style
注意我的風格
Why I look so sad
為什麼我看起來這麼傷心
Why I get so mad
為什麼我這么生氣
Why I want it all to end I don't make pretend
為什麼我要結束這一切而不是偽裝
Lost my cousin to the drugs, he was 15
我表弟因為毒品死了那時他15歲
But all the drugs the cool kids mixing
但是所有的毒品酷小孩混合
I don't care about my friends
我不在乎我的朋友
Cuz the main thing
因為最重要的是
Is that I do the right thing
我做了正確的事
Keep my name clean
保持我的清白
And keep my mind clean
保持頭腦清醒
Make peace with my damn anxiety
讓我的焦慮平靜下來
No way I make it back to sobriety
我不可能回去戒酒的
Cuz all the drugs will heal the pain inside of me
因為所有的藥物都能治愈我內心的傷痛
I'm breaking down (breaking down)
我要崩潰了（崩潰）
Can't figure out (can't figure out)
弄不明白(弄不明白)
Can't take away the pain
不能帶走痛苦
I'm borderline insane
我快瘋了
l'm borderline insane
我快瘋了
l'm borderline insane
我快瘋了
I can never focus on the sh*t that works
我從來都不能集中精力在那些鬼東西上
If you give me 50 dollars for my verse
如果你給我50美元寫歌
l'll make it work
我會想辦法的
But I'll write a f* cking lie
但我會寫一個該死的謊言
Cuz the truth is all that hurts
因為真相才是最傷人的
I don't think its a surpise
我不認為這是驚喜
All my problems are the worst
我所有的問題都是最糟糕的
Triple seven on my wrist
我手腕上有三個7
But it dont mean jack sh*t
但那不代表傑克該死
Number of the angel, I f* ckin thought they exist
天使的號碼我以為他們真的存在
Just wanna live 2020
只想活到2020年
Ain't that sh*t
真他媽的
Locked in my room when l'm bout to go bad, shit
當我要變壞的時候把自己鎖在房間裡該死
I wish I could say it to light
我希望我能對著光說出來
Age 17, thought I wanted to die
17歲的時候以為自己想死
But I cannot lie
但我不會撒謊
Even when I do try to work
即使我努力工作
From my heart to the end of my life
從我的心到我生命的盡頭
Work from my heart to the end of my life
從工作到生命的盡頭
Work from my heart to the end of my life
從我的心到我生命的盡頭
I'm breaking down (breaking down)
我要崩潰了（崩潰）
Can't figure out (can't figure out)
弄不明白(弄不明白)
Can't take away the pain
不能帶走痛苦
l'm borderline insane
我快瘋了
why