Cant Believe I Had You

Im finding it hard to live with myself--
我發現自己很難接受
this grief, and the mistakes I have made.
我的悲傷，我所犯的錯誤
Ive been trying to find the words to say to you.
我一直想找些話對你說
But as the days come to an end, I--
但是隨著日子的結束
I just sit and lay with my head in my hands.
我只是坐在那裡，雙手抱著頭躺著
Staring out into a world where nothing stares back at me
凝視著外面的世界
apart from a memory of you.
那裡除了對你記憶，沒有任何其他的
You were my best friend, my savior, my soulmate.
你是我最好的朋友，我的救世主，我的靈魂伴侶
You were everything to me.
你是我的一切
I know that everything we once knew has changed
我知道我們曾經了解的一切都改變了
and that you no longer see me as the person I once was;
你不再把我看作過去的那個我
but, that person is still here.
但是，過去的那個人，過去的那個我仍在這裡
There is a burden in being misunderstood.
被誤解是一種負擔
A burden I carry with me every day.
這是我每天都要背負的負擔
And I know it sounds over the top but, you were the only one who ever understood me.
我知道這聽起來有點誇張，但你是唯一一個懂我的人
I cant believe I had you, and I hope that one day, you forgive me.
但我還是不敢相信我已經擁有了你，我希望有一天，你能真正對我既往不咎
Ill never, ever forget you.
我永遠不會忘記你