Day 38, cant make it
Counting scars like marks in the pavement
All the love in me turned to hatred
And beautiful things bring pain when
Theyre gone like we all will be
Wish I could kill my ****ing feelings
Stuck in this hell, scratched your name in the ceiling
Starting to think that this is really how it ends
Been 6 months since Ive seen you
Hope youre doing good, yeah, me too
Things have changed so much and Ive seen a new life
It all fell into place without you by my side
Then 10 years came and went so quick
Your first loves gone and got 3 kids
It took so long but theres so much Ive missed
Ive learned life hurts but I love this
And all I ever really wanted was you in it
Maybe Im meant to spend forever as a masochist
All I have left is in my head
A blank space with your name in it
Wish you would have stayed but I understand
I went too deep and drowned again
I think the pain made me love instead
Pulled out the pages inside my head
Felt what it means to see everything
And every being for what it is
I still miss you so much
But everythings hopeless and its not so bad
Add another slash and run it back screaming
Day 38, cant make it
Counting scars like marks in the pavement
All the love in me turned to hatred
And beautiful things bring pain when
Theyre gone like we all will be
Wish I could kill my ****ing feelings
Stuck in this hell, scratched your name in the ceiling
Starting to think thatthis is really how it ends
Been 6 months since Ive seen you
Hope youre doing good, yeah, me too
Things have changed so much and Ive seen a new life
It all fell into place without you by my side
Then 10 years came and went so quick
Your first loves gone and got 3 kids
It took so long but theres so much Ive missed
Ive learned life hurts but I love this