Still No

(Do you feel alone right now?)
(I mean, Id like to believe Im not, but I just... Ive just never seen any proof)
(so I... I just dont debate it anymore, you know?)
Doing all the wrong things
Kaki King
Awfully bleak
Feeling meek
Eating maki
Saki drink
Not the tea
Boston streets
Calling me
Calling them
Maybe I should make a call for this bread
Oh lord please no don't ever take me back to my old ways
Was in the hallway
Ain't promote it
No gold chain
The ones that really need it kept quiet, don't show face
Was trying to put something on a styrofoam plate
I was in and out
Catch a plane to San Francisco, distro,
Shipping, disclaimer location,
No, I never did announce
Skipped the In & Out
Living in a disco 6 days
Top down, exotic rental
Intoxicated state
Expensive brunch
Pacific Heights
Crystal stemware
Sitting nice
The city lights
Liquor hit the ice
Iffy intuition listen, didn't trip
If there's anything in this life I've learned
This isn't it
I don't get it
Still No (Is that scary?)
Still don't get it
Still No (I dont want to be alone.)
Nothing in this life is free,
Promised or forever
Sooner that gets through your head
Well, the better
Nothing in this life is free,
Promised or forever
Sooner that gets through your head
Well, the better, the better
And I knew it
As romantic as my hopes are
My pessimism is at its peak
Promises barrage
Don't trust em'
Pass the test flying colors, gold stars
Genuinely believe all good things end
So, so long
And if you live that way
Then no one
Will have an opportunity to take advantage of you
Never be let down
Intermittent happiness
But mostly sadness
As it is no one's plan to love you
Wash away like waves when they hit the harbor, glimmer
Harbor all your honest wishes
They were not shared with the ones you wanted
Let it rot in you
Till you ain't got a pot to piss in
Let it affect every part of your being
Wore my heart on my sleeve
Eventually stopped beating,
And the flesh turned green
Exposed arteries start to stink
Mine is not anatomical
Missing parts,
This can't be all of you
My atrium aching,
If everything's fine
Then what is wrong with you?
Still No (Is that scary?)
Still don't get it
Still No (I dont want to be alone.)
Nothing in this life is free,
Promised or forever
Sooner that gets through your head
Well, the better
Nothing in this life is free,
Promised or forever
Sooner that gets through your head
Well, the better, the better
(Its absurd.)
(The search for God is absurd?)
The better
(It is if everyone dies alone.)