Lullaby

Every time I die a little more inside
1da told me to speak on it
Imma speak on it. Fuck it
Mumble rap man
Mumble rap right?
Thats what we doin?
Yeah
Alright
Wonder if God heard me pray
When I was trying to repent
If he didnt
I know he heard my mother cry over rent
Then you wonder
Why the mood inside this room is so tense
No offense
But I dont really got nowhere to go vent
Oh yeah success is like a drug
And I been high on the scent
Feel like I wasted all the money
And the time that I spent
Maybe the tears inside my eyes
Had me blind with revenge
I told her even if we crash
Imma ride till the end
There I go lying again
Dont know why I pretend
Hold up
Let me try this again
Lord you know I never open up
Abusing drugs never thinking I was dope enough
Shes over me when Im the one that
Shes supposed to love
At least my heart broke enough for the both of us
They told me play your part (play your part)
Boy we different, you smart
Let her lay in your bed
Dont ever let a bitch in your heart
Still around the same ones that
I was with from the start
Though the distance got us drifting apart
Felt betrayed
Swear to God till this day man this shit hit my heart
Wanted to shine so bad that I got left in the dark
Still love you
Cant help but see that kid in the park
Runnin round the town
Looking for some shit we can start
Any issues I was right there with it (I was)
Ibought my dream house
But I been having nightmares in it
The game ugly
Just tell me why you cant love me (why?)
Or why the fuck youre ashamed of me
You cant judge me
Thats why I stay numb
And the smartest thing I ever did was play dumb (Uh)
Staying up nights till my day comes
Old memories had me wishin that we stayed young
Im a mess thinkin less so Im saying more
I talk to God about you so Im praying more
Thats why I smoke a hundred blunts straight
Pops left, moms cried for a month straight
Used to cry too, but I would never show her
Superwoman feel blessed if you ever know her
Look at all this shit that we made it through
They bugged the house and they raid it too
If that aint ironic Im a crazy fool
Play it cool, baby, play it cool
They dont acknowledge my accomplishments
My opp was just a optimist
Im copping shit
But still Im not convinced that this is opulence
I can probably fuck Pocahontas right out her Moccasins
Killing everything that
Im authoring like the offering
Ten stitches with my limbs twitching
You ever went through withdrawals till ya skin itches?
Huh
Screaming fuck what you think
Tears falling while I write it down, smudging the ink
Please pour out a couple of drinks
Sometimes I wish that I was up there with Chinx
You wouldnt even care if I ever died
So I wrote this for the tears that youll never cry
Lullaby