VBS

In the summer of 07, I was sure Id go to heaven
零七年那個夏天我感覺生命到頭了
But I was hedging my bets at VBS
但我強撐著心跳活了下來
A preacher in a T-shirt told me I could be a leader
那個穿襯衫的傳教士說我適合去佈告
Taught me how to build a fire and to spread the word
他教我如何去感染大眾散播這些言辭

到了深夜人們祈禱著啜泣著
In the evening, everybody went to worship and weep
雙手捧在額前祈求上帝顯靈
Hands above our heads, reaching for God
回到樹屋在你床上嗅著肉果香
Back in the cabin, snorting nutmeg in your bunk bed
你在等自己敞開心扉
You were waiting for a revelation of your own
那些無人知曉的秘密就像爛在你體內的桃核一樣
Sedentary secrets like peach pits in your gut
就像封窖在你心臟深處的果醬罐
Locked away like jam jars in the cellar of your heart
總是捨不得品嚐最後白白浪費
Waiting to be tasted and ultimately wasted
你總是開局就將我打敗
You were gonna win me over from the start
這詩太糟糕了

我用力忍住不笑出聲
The poetry was so bad
你說我給你帶來了光明
It took a lot to not laugh
但到最後
You said that I showed you the light
我只會讓黑暗更濃重
But all it did in the end
那個夏天你父親沒有將袖口摞起我想著沒那麼簡單
Was make the dark feel darker than before
你母親的妝容越來越濃了定是發生了什麼

我說你出生在這兒定是有上天的安排
Your dad keeps his sleeves down through the summer for a reason
但你就是不願相信你是幸運的
Your mother wears her makeup extra thick for a reason
你想要入睡那些思緒會讓你一直清醒
When I tell you you were born and you are here for a reason
你的心跳越來越快越來越強烈
You are not convinced the reason is a good one
你沒法去改變什麼但也有辦法舒緩情緒
While youre going to sleep, your mind keeps you awake
全音量聽著殺手樂隊的歌你會好受點
And it makes your heart beat fast and loud
這首詩糟透了
There's nothing you can do but the only thing you found
我用力忍住不笑出聲
Playing Slayer at full volume helps to block it out
你說我給你帶來了光明

但到最後
The poetry was so bad
我只會讓黑暗更濃重
It took a lot to not laugh
讓陰鬱的情緒越發深沉
You said that I showed you the light
讓苦悶的心緒達到極點
But all it did in the end
Was make the dark feel darker than before
Dark feel darker than before
Dark feel darker than before