I waste my time on my whole life
自始至終我都在浪費時間
Hold my thoughts cuz Ive been sleep deprived
保留意見只因夜不能寐
I waste my life in broke mind
在破碎的意識中消磨生命
Hold my words cuz they never come out right
謹言慎行只因詞不達意
Im trying really hard to be someone youd like
竭盡全力成為你眼中歡愉
Im trying really hard to feel like Ill be be fine
全心全意相信能求得安寧
Im trying really hard and maybe Ill find
這般努力，或許我會察覺
That my reflection in life isnt all that unkind
一生映像並不盡是刻薄無情
Cant I be a little self sure
為何我無法做到自信不疑
Self secure On that Im not all that I think I am
以自己並沒有那麼不堪為由自我安慰
Cant I get a little control
為何我無法把握任何事物
Open my doors,On that Im not all that bad as I think i am
以自己並不是十分差勁為由敞開心門
I dont really care for what I have left
我不為自己造成的惡果懺悔
Because i ****** myself up so much,I might deserve all this mess
因為像我這般的人注定不會成功
**** all this love,Because I hate to admit
去他媽的熱血激情，我真的不想承認
That Im really like this,Just Scum piece of ****
自己就是這樣一個狗屁不如的廢物
And I know I could be brighter
我知道，我本應過得更好
Yeah I know I could aim higher
本可追逐更高目標
I know I should think lighter
本該怀揣美好希望
I know ill be fine if I was a tryer
如果我曾試圖改變，一切都會截然不同
Yeah,I hate how I cant let myself hang low
我痛恨頹廢而又茫然的自己
If I didnt speak at all I think I would let it go
如果我不傾訴，也許會裝作無事發生
But if I could say how I hurt I would promise to let you know
但如果我能將痛楚清晰表述，你絕對會感同身受
But Ive been feeling godamn low,well I just cant letit go
但我太他媽頹喪了，無法麻痺自己
Do you remember 2013
你還記得2013年嗎
From then on I wished my life was unseen
從那時起，我希望這輩子不曾開始
Cuz I hate who I could have been,Let myself slit up my skin
因為我憎惡著擁有希望的自己，企圖從妄想的虛殼中逃離
And drown all my dreams,Going down In the sink
把所有夢想沉溺，窒息在水底
Im sorry maybe I should have tried harder
抱歉，或許是我不夠努力
Jumped from a bridge that was just that little bit higher
可能我應該從再高一點的橋上一躍而下
Im sorry My words cant be any sharper
抱歉我的言辭還不夠尖利直接
But Id cut up my mind and set the remains on fire
我寧願撕碎自己的意識並付之一炬
Yeah,At least you could have said Im gone on the drugs
好吧，你可以說我嗑藥了
But I am sober now and I still seem to **** up
但我卻無比清醒，並準備好迎接下一個失敗
But Im sorry I cant accept all your love,It wears me off
很抱歉我不能接受你所有的感情，與我而言這是負擔
Leave me in my head because thats tiring enough?
讓我浸沒在自我的夢境中，我夠累了
I waste my time on my whole life
終其一生我只會浪費時間
Hold my thoughts cuz Ive been sleep deprived
閉關自守，徹夜難眠
I waste my life in broke mind
在殘留的余夢中無聲泯滅
Hold my words cuz they never come out right
緘口不語，言不由衷
Im trying really hard to be someone youd like
千方百計成為你心中白月
Im trying really hard to feel like Ill be fine
想方設法假裝我一切尚可
Im trying really hard and maybe Ill find
如此用心，或許我會明白
The reflection in life isnt all that unkind
這世間值得
do you mind