eidolon - something worse than dying

I've been neglecting my energy
Left too much room for my enemies
Now with a seat at the table
See that they feast ain't my remedy
I could get lost in the melody
Or be consumed by my jealousy
I could get my shit together
Making moves on their revelry

They say we're part of the set
So take your spot in the backdrop
Just smile and wave
That grass ain't green it's a sandlot
We sell our souls for some dollars
We bet our lives on their games
We take the pill that they put to our lips
And lie through our shame

Imma die on my mother ****in blade
Rather take my own life before I turn into a snake
I been looking in the past thinking back on yesterday
Stay true to what it is Imma set my record straight
Make me shake like
Imma die on my mother ****in blade
Rather take my own life before I turn into a snake
I been looking in the past thinking back on yesterday
Stay true to what it is Imma set my record straight
Make me shake like

I'm looking like the * ***in wolfman
You ain't an artist you a mother****in tucan
You won't buy beats but buy an open for like 2 bands
You are the sheep I am a motherf*ckin mutant
I am a mutant

I walked away from what I am
To walk a path I wasn't meant for
Now my mask of their expectance
just a prison not a shelter
They tell you to do what's best for you
And your finances and your future
Now I'm living in their world
This is their god it is my torture

I see no other option
Won't live inside their clan
Can't worship who they say to
More than another Stan
Won't place myself in boxes
Can't follow others plans
I know I'll burn out bright
Yeah I know just who I am

Imma die on my mother ****in blade
Rather take my own life before I turn into a snake
I been looking in the past thinking back on yesterday
Stay true to what it is Imma set my record straight
Make me shake like
Imma die on my mother ****in blade
Rather take my own life before I turn into a snake
I been looking in the past thinking back on yesterday
Stay true to what it is Imma set my record straight
Make me shake like