Shed So Many Tears (Tribute)
I shall not fear no man but God
原來,我除了上帝一直無所畏懼
Though I walk through the valley of death
但我徘徊在死亡邊緣的時候我知道我錯了
I shed so many tears (if I should die before I wake)
流了很多眼淚【我真的要在活的明白之前死去嗎】
Please God walk with me (grab a nigga and take me to Heaven)
祈禱主的寬恕並帶我去天堂
Back in elementary, I thrived on misery
我的生命從痛苦開始
Left me alone I grew up amongst a dyin breed
獨自一人在生死存亡的世界成長
Inside my mind couldn't find a place to rest
我從未停止過思考
until I got that Thug Life tatted on my chest
直到我把“ Thug Life”刺在我的身上【Thug Life惡棍生涯,另外一種解釋是'The Hate U Give Little Infants, Fuck Everybody',其中字母I用一顆子彈代替。紋於1992年。這裡也暗示2pac在那個時候已經將自己的人生下了定義】
Tell me can you feel me? I’m not livin in the past, you wanna last
你該明白我了吧?我不能總是活在過去的陰影裡
Be tha first to blast, remember Kato
還記得Kato嗎? 【Kato,2pac在幫派中的摯友,因為2500美元在洛杉磯的家門口死於劫殺,他死後2pac將自己在亞特蘭大的一棟房子讓給他的家人住】
No longer with us he's deceased
他才離開我們沒多少時間
Call on the sirens, seen him murdered in the streets
也給大家提個醒:不要重蹈他的覆轍
Now rest in peace
安息吧兄弟
Is there heaven for a G? Remember me
如果天堂肯收留一個浪子,請記得給我留一個位子
So many homies in the cemetery, shed so many tears
為了身邊那些逝去的生命我不止一次的淚如雨下了
Ahh, I suffered through the years, and shed so many tears..
混跡了多少年,就流了多少淚
Lord , I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears
想到這些就忍不住痛哭流涕
Now that I'm strugglin in this business, by any means
現在的我都得忙於生活和生意【business雙關:一指代“幫派”生活的艱辛“麻煩纏身”,二指代音樂事業的難做“前兩張專輯都飽受爭議”】
Label me greedy gettin green, but seldom seen
不知不覺我的慾望開始膨脹
And fuck the world cause I'm cursed, I'm havin visions
草泥馬,我被這操蛋的世界詛咒了我甚至可以看到
of leavin here in a hearse, God can you feel me?
睡在棺材裡的自己主呀你看到了嗎
Take me away from all the pressure, and all the pain
讓我從這該死的痛苦和壓力中解脫吧
Show me some happiness again, I'm goin blind
我還沒有失明為什麼卻看不到一絲絲的幸福
I spend my time in this cell , ain't livin well
花了很多時間去研究如何去解脫卻一無所獲
I know my destiny is Hell, where did I fail?
天生就該下地獄的我計較TMD什麼失敗
My life is in denial, and when I die,
可能連我掛了都會遺臭萬年吧
baptized in eternal fire I'll shed so many tears
涅磐重生的時候我肯定會喜極而泣
Ahh, I suffered through the years, and shed so many tears..
混跡了多少年,就流了多少淚
Lord, I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears
想到這些就忍不住痛哭流涕
Now I'm lost and I'm weary, so many tears
現在的我除了眼淚漫無目的
I'm suicidal, so don't stand near me
離我遠些讓我自生自滅吧
My every move is a calculated step, to bring me closer
我的一舉一動都在掌控之中只為了
to embrace an early death, now there's nothin left
早一些解脫但全都失敗了
There was no mercy on the streets, I couldn't rest
他們不願寬恕我給我任何機會
I' m barely standin, bout to go to pieces, screamin peace
我咬緊牙關奄奄一息想要進行最後的反擊
And though my soul was deleted, I couldn't see it
但我看不到我那早已丟掉的魂魄
I had my mind full of demons tryin to break free
腦海裡面只有想要掙脫束縛的惡魔
They planted seeds and they hatched, sparkin the flame
他們預謀已久
inside my brain like a match, such a dirty game
只是為了那讓我痛不欲生的勾當
No memories, just a misery
行屍走肉般遭受著折磨
Paintin a picture of my enemies killin me, in my sleep
我腦海總會浮現敵人手刃我的畫面
Will I survive til the mo'nin, to see the sun
反复折磨得我生不如死還不如直接做了我
Please Lord forgive me for my sins, cause here I come…
親愛的神,偉大的神,你可以怪我太過無知而我只是人【借天才少年宋岳庭的詞來告慰另一位說唱天才】
Ahh, I suffered through the years, and shed so many tears..
混跡了多少年,就流了多少淚
Lord, I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears
想到這些就忍不住痛哭流涕
Lord knows I.. tried, been a witness to homicide
親愛的神你也看到了我的努力
Seen drivebys takin lives, little kids die
但對於飛來橫禍我也只能愛莫能助
Wonder why as I walk by
為什麼我總是會
Broken-hearted as I glance at the chalk line, gettin high
看到那些讓人悲慟不已的場景【chalk line:粉筆劃的線,通常表示死者在案發現場的位置】
This ain't the life for me, I wanna change
我想要改變這種不屬於我的生活
But ain't no future right for me, I'm stuck in the game
但對於未來我卻又沒有準確的方向
I'm trapped inside a maze
深陷迷霧的我
See this Tanqueray influenced me to gettin crazy
有時只能用酒精來麻痺自己【 Tanqueray:金酒中的極品名釀,深厚幹洌,由美國最著名的進口金酒哥頓公司和添加利公司聯名出品】
Disillusioned lately, I've been really wantin babies
酒醒之後,我想我總得有個孩子吧
so I could see a part of me that wasn't always shady
我也看到了自己那頑劣性格中好的地方
Don't trust my lady, cause she's a product of this poison
我才不相信我的那個罪魁禍首的馬子
I'm hearin noises, think she fuckin all my boys, can't take no more
我甚至可以聽到她和我的朋友們翻雲覆雨的齷蹉動靜
I'm fallin to the floor; beggin for the Lord to let me in
說來說去,我只祈禱親愛的主能讓我上天堂
to Heaven's door — shed so many tears
唉,說著說著眼淚又不爭氣的流了下來
(Dear God, please let me in)
親愛的神,請收留我吧
Lord, I've lost so many years, and shed so many tears..
想到這些就忍不住痛哭流涕
I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears
我失去了太多太多的東西
Ahh, I suffered through the years, and shed so many tears..
混跡了多少年,就流了多少淚
Lord, I lost so many peers, and shed so many tears
想到這些就忍不住痛哭流涕