Forgive Me Mother

He had the heart of a soldier in a city full of bandits
Ran with the cold spirits, couple of bad habits
Heart full of pain and a pipe full of magic
Getting him high, hes feeling like hes ready to die
But his girl just told him she pregnant, he dont know what to do
The word 'Father' was just something that he never knew
So hows he gonna be one
Hows he gonna raise child in a city full of demons
When his mother had three sons
And two of em dead, one took two to the head
The other took three to the heart, he never knew what was said
But he knows, hes all his mother got now
He aint got no feelings, they say hes numb to the pain
He on the corner with the Glock now
Momma always told him he was Gods son
But hes feeling like the Devils advocate
Running streets with the lost ones
And he dont wanna lose touch with his soul
But hes feeling like he aint got nowhere to go
Nowhere to go
He wanted to be like Nas, Biggie and Pac
He used to bump em in his uncles whip until he got shot
The first time he ever saw tears coming from his mothers eyes
Too young to understand, so he just wondered why
He always used to ask the Lord if heaven had a ghetto
And when he tries to end it all, he just cant seem to let go
He shed so many tears , so many times, so many lies
All he feels in his heart is hate, so he never cries
Hes running with the pack like a wild coyote
Running the city sticking niggas up like 'Pay what youowe me'
Its just him against the world, all his homeboys turned on him
They plotting to get him, they asking 'Whats the word on him?'
They heard his mother stayed a few blocks down
Hopped in the ride, got to the house and let off some rounds
Twenty-five shots through the window, ten through the door
Opened his eyes and he seen his mother dead on the floor
Mother forgive me