Only Fear Of Death

They wanna bury me, Im worried, Im losin my mind
Look down the barrel of my 9, and my visions blurry
Fallin to pieces, am I guilty? I pray to the Lord
But he ignores me , unfortunately, 'cause Im guilty
Show me a miracle, Im hopeless
Im chokin off ********* smoke
With every toke its like Im losin focus
Fallin asleep while Im in service, when will I die?
Forever paranoid and nervous, because Im high
Dont mention funerals, Im stressin and goin nutty
And reminiscin bout them *****s that murdered my buddy
I wonder: When will I be happy? Aint nothin funny
Flashbacks of bustin caps, anything for money
Where am I goin? I discovered, cant nothin save me
My next door neighbors havin convo with undercovers
Put a surprise in the mailbox, hope she get it
Happy birthday, *****, you know you shouldnt have did it
Everybodys dyin, am I next? Who can I trust?
Will they be Gs, and they look at me before they bust?
Or will they kill me while Im sleepin?
Two to the head while Im in bed
Leakin blood on my satin sheets
Is there a heaven for a baller?
Im gettin suspicious of this *****
The lines busy every time I call her
Now shes tellin me to visit, who else is home?
I check the house before I bone, so we all alone
After I nut I hit the highway, see ya later!
To allthe players, watch the fly way a ***** played her
This ***** is tellin all her homies
That I can **** her like no other
Now them other * ****** wanna bone me
Im under pressure, gettin drunk, somebody help me
I drank a fifth of Hennessy, I dont think its healthy
I see my enemies, they creepin, dont make me blast
I watch the 5-0s roll, the mother****ers pass
By me like they know me, smilin as they laugh
I put up my middle finger, then I dash
*****s dont like me, 'cause Im thuggin
And every day Im a hustler lookin to get paid
They wanna bury me, Im worried—no need to lie
I pray to God I dont scream when its time to fry
Nowhere to rest, Im losin homies—aint that a *****?
When I was rich I had clout, now a *****s lonely
I put the pistol to my head, and say a prayer
I see visions of me dead, Lord, are you there?
Then tell me, am I lost? 'Cause Im lonely
I thought I had friends, but in the end a ***** dies lonely
Nowhere to run, Im in terror, and no one cares
A closed casket at my funeral and no ones there
Is there a future for a killer? I change my ways
But still that dont promise me the next day
So I stay thuggin with a passion, forever blastin
Im bustin on these mother****ers in my madness
They wonder if Im hellbound
Well, Hell cant be worse than this, 'cause Im in Hell now
Dont make me hurt you, I dont want to, but I will
Seen mother****ers killed over phone bills
Never will I die, Ill be back
Reincarnated as a mother****in MAC-11,'cause in Heaven theres no shortage on Gs
Im tellin you now: You mother****ers dont know me