brutal

I want it to be, like, messy
我想讓這首歌凌亂一點
Im so insecure I think
我很缺乏安全感
That Ill die before I drink
估計都活不到能藉酒消愁的年紀
And Im so caught up in the news
我太在意別人的看法
Of who likes me and who hates you
搞得整天心煩意亂
And Im so tired that I might
當下的生活讓我乏困
Quit my job, start a new life
指不定哪天就會奔向自由
And theyd all be so disappointed
不管人們對我多麼失望
Cause who am I, if not exploited?
我很好奇跳脫束鎖的我是怎樣的
And Im so sick of seventeen
十七歲真難熬
Wheres my ****in teenage dream?
我的雄心壯志哪兒去了
If someone tells me one more time
如果再有人告訴我要“享受青春”
'Enjoy your youth', Im gonna cry
我估計會立馬哭出來
And I dont stick up for myself
我一直沒法振作
Im anxious and nothing can help
焦躁不已幾乎絕望
And I wish I'd done this before
有太多後悔的事
And I wish people liked me more
總想更受歡迎些
All I did was try my best
我已經竭盡全力做到最好了
This the kind of thanks I get?
卻還是得不到什麼好回報
Unrelentlessly upset (ah, ah ah)
一直浸在自己的苦河裡
They say these are the golden years
人們都說這是我的黃金時期
But I wish I could disappear
但我好想銷聲匿跡
Ego crush is so severe
自信挫敗太致命了
God, its brutal out here
現實真的太殘酷
I feel like no one wants me
我總覺得沒人愛我
And I hate the way Im perceived
我也不想這麼疑神疑鬼
I only have two real friends
不管怎麼算最多兩個真心朋友
And lately Im a nervous wreck
近來總是狂躁鬱悶
Cause I love people I dont like
愛上不喜歡的人
And I hate every song I write
寫不出滿意的歌
And Im not cool, and Im not smart
既不炫酷也不聰明
And I cant even parallel park
連車都停不好
All I did was try my best
我已經竭盡全力做到最好了
This the kind of thanks I get
卻仍然得不到應得的東西
Unrelentlessly upset (ah, ah ah)
成日浸在自己的苦河裡
They say these are the golden years
人們都說現在是我的黃金時期
But I wish I could disappear
我就希望沒人認識我
Ego crush is so severe
自信的落差太讓我窒息
God, its brutal out here
現實就是這麼殘酷
(Yeah! Just having a really good time)
（是哇現在我很開心）
Got a broken ego, broken heart
自信不再心碎滿地
And god, I dont even know where to start
唉我不知道該如何說起