happiness

I really hope that you find happiness
And the book you writes magnificent
And I wont help but stare at every word
It would burn holes in many mattresses
After I place it down, read in full
That lovely little book titled, 'I Told You So'
Yeah, youre Thoreau-ly mad
At the world
Yeah, and it sucks, but this place will never change
Itll probably get way worse
At best stay the same, so youll be ****ing world renowned
While Im getting drunk at my house
Thinking about the dumb words I said when I was a bit too high
Those two pills I took felt very nice
But made me break your lovely little heart
And I said, 'Ashley, thats so ****ing dumb
To think that life just hands you some book
That you barely have to write
Its gonna take like ****ing 4 or 5 bad books nobody would ever like
For you to live that wonderful life'
And she stopped
And she cried
That night
And shes right, shes gonna write that book
Thats gonna make me look
Like a ****ing fool
And I know that shell find happiness
And her book will be magnificent
And I wont help but stare at every word
It would burn holes in all these mattresses
After I place it down, read in full
That lovely little book titled, 'I Told You So'
Yeah, youre Thoreau-ly mad at me
But so what?
Im never gonna change
Ill probably get way worse
At best, stay the same
So I will sit
And I will drink myself to either to sleep or my untimely death
Eitherway I hope that you dont cry, you know
Thats just a part of life
Dereks father and my father know
Cirrhosis is a tough way to go
So when we drink a lot after our show
Pretending that were not even scared at all
Genetics are what make me go to bed
Because theres something thats inside my head
That will click and make me drink until Im dead
And Dereks dad and my dad are done
So I will sit and
I will think about this life
And if I even like it
But I know that Im gonna find a little bit of...
Happiness
I think its in my house or somewhere else
But I am turning over every stone
And I will search the ****ing depths of this
Stupid place my kids will have to live
In order just to smile a little bit
But you know
Im Thoreau-ly in love with you
And yeah, Im really scared that I may never change
But Im so ****ing done being so afraid
I really hope that you find happiness