Yeah
Yeah
Lately I feel like the devil's watching, he taunts me
最近我總感覺惡魔在註視著我嘲笑著我
I been having these thoughts in my head, they haunt me
這些想法縈繞於我的耳畔
I been trying to keep my focus but I keep having this dream
我嘗試著集中註意力保持清醒但我還是總做著這樣一個夢
That I lost my life when I got shot in 2015, and
夢見在2015年我中槍身亡
I walk around my city and no one sees me
夢見我在城市裡游盪但沒人看得見我
I used to think, 'If I died it would be so easy'
我常常想: 如果沒有我凡事都會很順利吧
Well, here I am, feel like everyone left me
我在這裡感覺所有人都離開了我
Now I'm back at home and everything feels so empty
現在我回到了家中一切都顯得那麼空洞
Upstairs I see the girl I love crying alone
我看見我所愛的女孩在樓上獨自哭泣
I see the cuts on her wrists, she's scared of dying alone
我看見了她手腕上的割痕看見了她對無聲無息地死去的害怕
I said her name softly, I swear that she looked right at me
我柔聲呼喚她的名字我很肯定她也看向了我
That's when I tried to walk up to her,
但當我走向她時
But she walked past me, damn
她卻從我身旁走過哎。
At my funeral, they dressed in all black
在我的葬禮上他們著一身黑色
Everybody mourning my death while I stand in the back
所有人都在哀悼我的逝世我站在陰影裡
And I look at they faces, in they eyes the pain is so clear
我看向他們的臉他們眼裡的痛苦多麼顯而易見
But the people that I called my friends, they ain't even here
但那些我稱之為朋友的人卻不在席上
Crazy how quickly they forget, instead of mourning my death
太扯了吧他們忘的可真快而沒有來哀悼我
They fighting over who gets the house
他們忙著爭論房子歸誰
And who gets the checks, damn
他們忙著爭奪繼承權
I gave my heart to these people throughout these songs
我通過這些歌來將我的心意傳達給這些人
And it's sad to know that
但殘酷的是——
Noneof it matters now that I'm gone, damn
我不在人世了那就當什麼也沒發生吧
Yeah, yeah
Yeah yeah
All my albums are on the charts,
我的所有專輯都很火
And all the radios wanna play me
所有電台都想放我的歌
I guess it took me to die for them to appreciate me
我猜為了讓他們能讚頌我我得死一死
I see them posting and saying how much they miss me
我看見他們為我寫報導說他們多麼想念我
But back when I was alive
但當時光回溯到我還活著的時候
And depressed they ain't never hit me
那時他們從不會關注我這實在令人沮喪啊
Before I died they all used to hate me, but now it's funny
在我死之前他們都討厭我但現在態度卻轉變了真有趣呵
They post pictures,
他們寄來令我不安的圖片
They all tryin ' to claim me but never loved me
他們都想向我索取什麼他們從未愛過我
Spit on my name when I was alive, I'll never forget
當我尚在人世時他們向我吐唾沫我是永遠不會忘記的了
It's sad that they wait till you die to show they respect, but
但真令人難過了他們等到我死後才表達對我的敬意
Finally all the people who I looked up to
最後那些我所尊敬的人
Say how they respect me, saying they woulda loved to
說著他們有多尊敬我說著他們多希望
Meet me in the past, but it's too late for that now
能在以前就認識我但現在一切都太晚了
The way these people used to treat me,
這些人曾經是怎樣對待我的啊
They can't take it back now
現在他們是收不回去的
People tell stories about how we were close
他們講述我們以往有多親近
And how they would ride for me
直言他們能怎樣為我做牛做馬
I know I'm gone, but that energy they can't hide from me
我知道我已不在人世但他們充沛的精力是瞞不過我的
Award shows and these red carpets the same
他們活躍在頒獎典禮這些紅毯還是一樣的
They make these tributes to my name,
他們對我的名致以敬意
But back then they never invited me
但在曾經他們從未想起過我
Look, I'm at the Grammys,
瞧瞧——留聲機裡放著我的歌
I wish Icould tell my mom I made it
我希望我能告訴我的媽媽我成功了
It only took a hole in my head to be nominated
想被他人認可只需向我的腦袋開一槍
I looked for love from these people but all along
我從那些人身上尋找愛
What they said was true,
但一直以來他們說的其實都對：
They don't love you until you gone, ****
直到你離開人世他們才會分一點愛給你
But the truth is this life never goes the way you plan it
但事實是生活總是跌宕起伏撲朔迷離
I guess the point of this song
我猜這首歌是想告訴人們
Is don't take your life for granted
在生活中不要總是想當然
And appreciate people while they still here
要多多讚美身邊的人
And before you judge someone take a look in the mirror
在你批判別人之前請照照鏡子看看自己
Because at any moment anything could happen
這首歌這樣說是因為意外隨時會發生
Nothing is ever promised, but you can just imagine
沒有任何事是被保證的但還是可以幻想一下
How it would be, so I give the type of love I want for me
怎樣才能讓它被保證呢所以我選擇自愛
'Cause one day it'll be my last
我這樣想是因為總有一天我會死去
And it won't just be a dream, I mean
也因為上述的一切不只是一場夢那麼簡單
The Dream