I'm not suicidal, I don't wanna ****ing die
我不想自鯊，我他馬不想死
I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
我只想能夠閉上眼睛，感覺一切都好
But every day I feel like dying
但每天我都感覺要死了
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)
每天都感覺快死了
Why do I even try?
但我為什麼還要嘗試自救?
Why do I even write lyrics about how I'm living the life when I'm battling pain and my demons at night
我為什麼還要寫歌描述我如何一邊過著這日子，一邊在夜裡與苦痛和心魔作鬥爭
Trying to find a new outlet
每當我試著找個新的發洩口
The devil pouncin'
惡鬼突襲
I hear him howlin', my vision cloudin'
我聽到他嚎叫，我視線變得模糊
Man I tried to escape but there ain't no way
聽我說，我想逃，但無路可逃
Try to be strong when I deal with the pain (yuh)
當我面對這痛苦，我試著變堅強些
But I'm ditching the coffin, so my family has options
我準備把棺材扔了，這樣我的家人起碼有選擇權
Gotta work till' I' m dead
我得工作到死
So that they get the best
這樣才能給他們最好的
Don't wanna set up a bad example cause the kids looking up
我不想樹立壞榜樣，因為小孩子們會向我看齊
Can't leave in shambles can't make them think clocking out's ok
我不能留下一堆爛攤子然後離開，不能讓他們覺得你正常打卡下班就萬事OK
So **** suicide I'm here to stay
所以去你馬的自傻，我要留下
Try to free my mind
我試著放空自己
I don't know what's right
我不知道什麼才是對的
Wasting all my time, tryna find the light
浪費我所有時間，想要找到那束光
Try to free my mind
我試著放空自己
I don't know what's right
我不知道什麼是對的
Wasting all my time, tryna find the light (Nah, man )
浪費我所有時間，想要找到那束光（不）
I'll be out here runnin', I'll be runnin' from myself now
現在我將狂奔，我要遠離那樣的自己了
Gunnin' demons down find my way out of this hell now
擊斃那些惡魔，找到擺脫這個地獄的路了
I'll be runnin' now, I'll be runnin'from myself now
現在我要狂奔，我要狂奔了
Gunnin' demons down, find my way out of this hell now
擊斃那些惡魔，找到擺脫這個地獄的路了！
I'm not suicidal, I don't wanna ****ing die
我不想自鯊，我他馬不想死
I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
我只想能夠閉上眼睛，感覺一切都好
But every day I feel like dying
但每天我都感覺要死了
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)
每天都感覺快死了
One too many bad thoughts inside me
我心裡有太多糟糕的想法
Got a hole in my heart put the past behind me
我心裡有個洞，把過去拋在身後
I'm pressed with time, I'm stressed with life, my breath is ice
時間催趕我，生活壓迫我，我呼吸變成冰
I guess I might just bottle it up some more just like always
我想我可能只會像往常一樣更多地壓抑情緒罷了
Barely standing, crawling down the hallways
幾乎站不穩，我爬過玄關
Sink into my bed, with death inside my head
陷入床上，懷著死的念頭
(Yeah) That note you found I didn't mean it
你發現的那張便條，它不是我的本意（指便條上有暗示自傻的留言）
Just wish I had a better sense of meaning
只是希望我的存在更有意義
Never meant to let you down
從沒想過讓你失望
I've been down now racing thoughts had to drown them out (****)
我情緒一直低落，現在催動想法，必須趕出它們（艹）
Never giving in I swear to god, no matter how many times I pray to a god
永不屈服，我向神發誓，即使無數次向神祈禱
I don't believe in just to see if I will never wake up
我不信命，我倒要看看我是不是永遠醒不過來
But he called my bluff
但神看破了我的外強中乾
Try to free my mind
我試著放空自己
I don't know what's right
我不知道什麼才是對的
Wasting all my time, tryna find the light
浪費我所有時間，想要找到那束光
Try to free my mind
我試著放空自己
I don't know what's right
我不知道什麼是對的
Wasting all my time , tryna find the light
浪費我所有時間，想要找到那束光
(nah, man)
（不）
I'll be out here runnin', I'll be runnin' from myself now
現在我將狂奔，我要遠離那樣的自己了
Gunnin' demons down find my way out of this hell now
擊斃那些惡魔，找到擺脫這個地獄的路了
I'll be runnin' now, I'll be runnin' from myself now
現在我要狂奔，我要狂奔了
Gunnin' demons down, find my way out of this hell now
擊斃那些惡魔，找到擺脫這個地獄的路了！
I'm not suicidal, I don't wanna ****ing die
我不想自鯊，我他馬不想死
I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
我只想能夠閉上眼睛，感覺一切都好
But every day I feel like dying
但每天我都感覺要死了
Every day I feel like dying (dying...)
每天都感覺快死了
I'm not suicidal, I don't wanna ****ing die
我不想自鯊，我他馬不想死
I just wanna be able to close my eyes and feel alright
我只想能夠閉上眼睛，感覺一切都好
But every day I feel like dying
但每天我都感覺要死了
Every day I feel like dying ( dying...)
每天都感覺快死了
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