THE LIGHT

I... give... my mom so... -ness
我。 。 。給。 。 。我媽媽非常。 。 。 -混亂
In the same house my dad died in, all alone
我爸爸也死在了同一間房子裡，獨自一人
Trying not to be paranoid, trying not-... as they' re calling it
盡量不去偏執，試著不去妄想-。 。 。就像他們所說的
'Cause every headline is a reminder that the world's ****ed
因為每一個大標題都讓我想起這個世界有多操蛋
So I've been tryna see the light
所以我一直試著去看到光
In between the clouds
它就藏在雲層裡
Still love that sunshine
還是仍喜歡那些陽光
When I look at myself, I see a broken man
當我審視自己時，我已破敗不堪
Remnants of my pops, put the Glock to his head
我的殘存部分，他把格洛克對準了頭
Nothing ever go as planned, couldn't make amends
計劃永遠趕不上每次的變化
Forcibly pretend I don't give a damn
只能迫使我從嘴角擠出一句：我根本不在乎
At a loss, aimless, six feet
不知所措，迷茫，六英尺的
Deep, suffocatin', can't face it
深度，窒息，我不能面對它
Can't change it, ain't make it
我無力改變，更無法熬過去
Master plans by the maker, I see no savior
如今事已至此，我根本看不到救世主
Warped reflection in stainless steel, alcohol, and pills
包裹著反射的金屬，酒精，還有藥片兒
Deadly combination left with nothin' else to feel
除了這致命的組合之外，我感受不到任何東西
A floral haven, hopin' was painless, I see you in the faces
一個花香的天堂，我希望它是無痛的，我與你總會相見
Places, am I making? Reflections off a broken mirror
這裡是我做的嗎？一面碎鏡的倒影罷了
Fragments of my fear, glarin' back, like, 'Who's there?'
一地恐懼的碎片，回頭瞪了一眼：“到底誰在哪兒？
I can 't stand myself, beside myself, I see you there
我根本不認可自己，因為除了自己，我看到了你在那兒
I know you care, felt numb since September
我知道你在乎，自從我九月
When I heard the news, what I'd do to speak one last time
知道了這件事以來時常感到麻木，我最後一次要說的就是
Think I always will be haunted bythe image
我想我總是會出沒於這些印象裡：
Of a bloody backdrop, skull fragments in the ceilin'
一個血淋淋的背景裡，骷髏在牢房中碎裂
Thuggin ' presence in the room, heard my mother squealin'
獨自在房間裡硬撐著，聽到了媽媽的尖叫
Master of disguises, ash to ash, dust to dust, voids behind my eyelids
偽裝大師，最終塵歸塵土歸土，我的腦中只剩空虛
Blackin' out, bleedin' out, silence
塗黑，出血，這寂靜
Louder than a twisted top lion
比怒吼的雄獅更振聾發聵
As sick as our secrets, shadow people with needles
像我們每個人的秘密一樣噁心，有色人種伴隨著針頭
Bathin' through a peephole
一同褪色於門鏡
Bedtime stories in purgatory, I miss you
煉獄中的睡前故事，我思念你
For the record, I can fly
為了這張專輯，我可以飛翔
Around the world, absorbing light
環繞於每寸土地，汲取著陽光
Something's missin' deep inside
內心深處，某些事物不翼而飛
The light
光
Somethin' changed in Texas, guess I missed the message
在德克薩斯，一些事情已經變了，我想我錯過了那些信息
Look, I missed my exit, I' m living like a Jetson
你看，我已經錯過了我的出路，我活的像是jetson
I was broke and desperate, leanin' on my best friends
我已經又窮又絕望，只能依靠我最好的朋友
Only shot callers I was around was bartendin'
只能喝些曾經的老酒
Ain't no love in this game, momma, this is not tennis
這場遊戲裡沒有愛，媽媽，這又不是網球（網球比賽中的數字“0”因法語“蛋I'oeuf”這個發音來代替0）
Take your shoes off, we just did the carpetin '
脫掉你的鞋子，我剛剛鋪了地毯
I could the take the hatin', I could take the praisin'
我可以接受仇恨，我也可以接受讚揚
And it's all noise to me, I'll turn into Satan
這些對於我來說都是噪音，我快要變成了魔鬼
Y'all stuck in the Matrix, red pill, blue pill, all these different faces
你們都被困在了《黑客帝國》裡，紅藥片，藍藥片，這些不同的外表
All these different cases, shit, y'all done seen me naked
都在不同的箱子裡，該死，你們都看到了最赤裸的我
So I'm awarewhat I want now and I ain't finna fake it
所以我意識到了我真正想要的，我不會去假裝
Thank God I made it, thank God I seen God last summer
感謝老天我做到了，感謝老天我在上一個夏天見到了神
I was standing on the bridge, I see all y'all under me
我當時站在橋上，看到了在下面的你們
Know you are struggling, niggas out here juggling
我知道你們都在掙扎，你們都在玩兒著把戲
Losin' jobs, well, losin' God, then everything is tumbling
失去了工作？那沒事兒。失去了信仰？那就會失神者亡
Feel Heaven rumbling, the rapture is comin'
感受到了來自天堂的聒噪，那是狂熱的欣喜正在來臨
I love the attention, I'm a bastard in public
我喜歡博得注意因為我走在路上就是混蛋
I still struggle with tellin' my mom who I'm in love with
我還在糾結告訴媽媽誰是我愛的人
Subtleties in between where these diamonds gleam
鑽石之間的微光最為精妙
When Thanksgiving come around, I still don't see 'em
當感恩節來臨的時候，我依舊看不到他們
When Christmas come around, nigga, I still don't see 'em
就算聖誕節也到了，我也依舊看不到
Showed the world who I was before I got to know Ian
在我認識我自己之前我就已經向世界展示了我是誰
To get my people money in exchange for they freedom
把錢給我的人民讓他們得到自由
I would give it all back for a chance to free 'em
但我會把這些都還回去給他們自由的機會