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Cause I had the best of the worst sides
因為我餘心尚善
And I had these lungs, oh
仍然可以呼吸
And I had too many flash fires
我一閃而過太多靈感
That I just let them burn
但我就只是讓它們閃過
Till my chest is on fire
直到我感到熱血沸騰
And my head just wont die
我不會再這樣消沉
[01:05.01]I guess Im lyin cause I wanna
我想我說謊只是因為想說謊
[01:07.70]I guess Im lyin cause I dont
我想我說謊是因為我不會說謊
[01:11.15]Cause I just feel so tired
因為我覺得一切都太他媽的難了
Like its move or slowly die
逃避還是繼續前進
So you aint you when youre like this
所以當你喪的時候這根本不是你
This aint you and you know it
你心中對這一切都很明了
But aint that just the point?
但這不只是關鍵嗎？
[01:27.87]And you dont know how to let go
想要一切釋懷？
[01:34.26]Who said this must be all or nothing
誰說這一切非得完美不然就毀滅？
[01:38.77]But Im still caught below and Ill never let you know
但我依然深陷其中但你永遠都不會知道
[01:47.45]No, I cant tell you nothing
不，我不能對你隱瞞一切
[04:08.71][02:05.11][01:51.97]Cause Im a ******* mess sometimes
因為，我他媽的總是搞砸一切
[01:55.36]But still, I could always be whatever you wanted
但是我始終會順從你意
[02:00.63]But not what you needed
但不是你需要的
[02:02.14]Especially when youve been needing me
特別是當你需要我的時候
[02:08.76]And Ill say what I dont mean
因為我就是個爛攤子
[02:11.91]Just cause I wanted or maybe I need it
我總是心口不一
[02:15.39]Swear lyings the only rush I need, yeah
只是因為我想要或者我需要
Cause all I needed was some words to say
發誓撒謊是我唯一需要的趨之若鶩，是啊
That all these feelings dont mean **** to me
因為我所要的不過是一次交心
Cause its all just chemicals anyway, anyway, yeah
所有這些感覺並不意味著對我而言是
And I got way too many routes to take
因為這一切都只是化學反應，是啊，管他呢。
To make all this just go away and find another heart to break
我有太多路要走了
So heartless with these words I say
帶著一切消失，再找另一個女孩去傷害嗎？
Just saying what Im supposed to say
我這麼說的話很無情
Cause I had nothing for you I cant love when I cant even love myself
但我只是說出了我該說的
Things I would rather be
因為當我甚至不能自愛的時候我便沒什麼愛給你
Thoughts at the back of my head
我願意做的事
But Im addicted to hurting
我腦海裡的想法
And I got these lungs, yeah
但我沉迷於傷害別人
And I spent too many late nights
我還是個活人
Just thinking a hole in the earth
我浪費了太多良宵
Till the sky is on fire
就只是在想這口大洞
And my head still wont die
直到天空變成紅色
Like I need something to come alive
我怎麼還沒死
She said, 'You aint you when youre like this'
我想我只是因為我想說慌而說謊
'This aint you, what youve done?'
我想我說謊是因為我不會說謊
And I said, 'Thats the point'
因為我真的感覺太累了