I wanna get better (demo version)

Hey I hear the voice of the preacher from the back room
聽到牧師的聲音從後面房間傳來
Calling my name and I follow just to find you
為了找到你，我忍不住跟隨那呼喚著我的聲音
I trace the faith to a broken down television and put on the weather
卻被引到一台播著天氣預報的舊電視前
And I've trained myself to give up on the past
我努力讓自己拋下過去
Cause I froze in time between hearses and caskets
可我的人生已在那場葬禮上停滯不前
Lost control when I panicked at the acid test
在這樣的艱難人生課題中，我不知所措
I wanna get better
我希望自己變得更好
While my friends were getting high
朋友們玩得越來越嗨
And chasing girls down parkway lines
在林蔭道上和女孩們嬉笑打鬧
I was losing my mind
我卻心碎到快要發瘋
Because the love,the love,the love,the love,the love
因為我所有的愛
that I gave wasted on a nice face
都傾注在這個可愛的人身上
In a blaze of fear,I put a helmet on a helmet
在巨大的恐懼之中我把自己層層包裹起來
Counting seconds through a night and got carried away
那些夜晚度秒如年，我陷在痛苦之中無法自拔
So now I'm standing on the overpass
我站在立交橋上
Screaming at the cars, hey!
奮力向車流吶喊，嘿！
I wanna get better!
我要變得更好
I didn't know I was lonely till I saw your face
遇到你我才發現自己是如此孤獨
I wanna get better
我要成為更好的人
Better, better, better
比好更好
I wanna get better
我希望自己變得更好
I didn 't know I was broken till I wanted to change
直到開始想做些改變我才發現自己的心已是如此破碎不堪
I wanna get better
我要成為更好的人
Better, better, better
比好更好
I wanna get better
我希望自己變得更好
I go up to my room and there's girls on the ceiling
我走進臥室，天花板上貼滿你的照片
Cut out their pictures
從這些照片裡把你剪出來
and I chase that feeling of an eighteen year old who didn't know what loss was
我緊跟著那些感覺，那是十八歲時的我不曾了解的失去至愛之痛
Now I'm a stranger
如今那些感受都慢慢消解
And I miss the days of a life still permanent
我想念那些只能永遠留在記憶裡的日子
Mourn the years before I got carried away
我已經沉浸在痛苦裡太多年
So now I'm staring at the interstate
我凝望著長長的公路
Screaming at myself, hey!
內心吶喊著，嘿！
I wanna get better
我要變得更好
I didn't know I was lonely till I saw your face
遇到你我才發現自己是如此孤獨
I wanna get better
我要成為更好的人
Better, better, better
比好更好
I wanna get better
我希望自己變得更好
I didn' t know I was broken till I wanted to change
直到開始想做些改變我才發現自己的心已是如此破碎不堪
I wanna get better
我要成為更好的人
Better, better, better
比好更好
I wanna get better
我要變得更好
Cause I'm sleeping in the back of a taxi
我在的士後座睡去
I'm screaming from my bedroom window
我從臥室裡向窗外吶喊
Even if it's gonna kill me
即便這會擊潰我
Woke up this morning early before my family
今早我早早醒來
From this dream where she was trying to show me
腦海裡還滿是她在夢裡努力的告訴我
How a life can move from the darkness
到底要如何走出低迷
She said to get better
她說你要變得更好
So I put a bullet where I should have put a helmet
所以我攤開了那些一直掩藏起來的脆弱
And I crash my car Cause I wanna get carried away
我撞壞了車子我多希望一切就這麼結束
That's why I'm standing on the overpass
這就是我站在立交橋上的原因
Screaming at myself, hey!
內心吶喊著
I wanna get better!
我要變得更好
I didn't know I was lonely till I saw your face
遇到你我才發現自己是如此孤獨
I wanna get better
我要成為更好的人
Better, better, better
比好更好
I wanna get better
我希望自己變得更好
I didn't know I was broken till I wanted to change
直到開始做些想改變我才發現自己的心已是如此破碎不堪
I wanna get better
我要成為更好的人
Better, better, better
比好更好
I wanna get better
我要變得更好
music & lyric by Jack Antonoff / John Hill