i wish i just said no

I wish i didnt see a chance for us
To think that this would work if we had trust
In the end im crying, but not cuase we broke up
We dont really talk it kinda sucks
I cant really say that this is wrong
You did say you wished us from the start
So maybe im just selfish, i really did mess up
I wish i just said no, this kind of sucks
So now i always know
You wont ask to hang anymore
Maybe chance was what you hold
Maybe that was why you were so close
But i will never know
Maybe seeing me hurts most
I don't care for your hold
I just hate that we were ever close
This fxxking sucks, what if i said no
Maybe i wouldn't feel alone
We would still be friends with more to grow
This fxxking sucks, i wish i just said no