Dear God

Dear God, I think it's time we had a conversation
親愛的上帝我想是時候我們該交心長談了
These lonely nights is getting to me so my mind is racing
孤獨的夜晚讓我思緒游離
I think about this life I live and all the shit I'm facing
思考著自己過著怎樣的生活面臨著怎樣的瑣事
More secrets in my mind then a free mason
心裡的秘密日漸增多
I get lonely at times, and then I write these rhymes
而我也時常感到孤獨所以我才寫下了這些歌詞
I'm only human, I want to hit the club and fuck a dime
我也只是一個平庸之人我也想過紅燈酒綠的生活
But I know that's not the answer to my problems
但我知道這並不是我問題的答案
Lord help me solve them
上帝啊幫幫我吧
Disintegrate and dissolve them
讓這些惱人的瑣事粉碎成灰吧
Laying in bed
我躺在床上
With a girl I'm pretty sure is my next
身旁躺著我美麗的下一任
Contemplating the sex
感受著與她身體的交融
While I think about my ex
可我腦海裡全是我的全女友
Am I wrong, Dear God, am I wrong
是我錯了嗎親愛的上帝是我做錯了嗎
Dear God tell me am I wrong
親愛的上帝告訴我吧
For living the life of a king surrounded by these pawns
過著如皇帝一般的生活被追隨者擁簇
Fans telling me I'm the greatest but I never hear them
粉絲們總告訴我說我已無人能及但我卻從來沒有聽信
Cause I ain't hit the pinnacle yeah I'm still persevering
因為我知道我還沒有攀到最高峰我還在努力著
Demons whispering in my ear but no I never fear them
惡魔在我耳邊細語可我卻未曾畏懼
People thinking they on his level they ain't even near him
人們總認為自己完成了自己的人生目標而事實他們還與此相隔千里
I just want to spread positivity
我只是想用力自己的歌詞
Through lyrical ability
去傳播一點正能量
They call it selling out but I just call it versatility
他們說我在追逐名利但我知道我在用著自己的天賦
Yeah, its my life
是啊這就是我的生活
My wrongs,and My rights
我的錯與對
My battle, My songs, and My fights
我的戰爭我的歌曲我的糾紛
Now everybody want to come around
而現在所有人都開始靠近我
Tell me where was you last year when a brother was down
訴說著他們在我低谷時期如何幫助了我
Not a single one of you mother fuckers believed in the brand
而事實當初沒有任何一個人看好過我
Extended a hand
沒有任何一個人伸手幫我
And now you want to be my man
而現在你們想要成為我的兄弟
I think not
而我的答案只能為不可能了
You quick to shape shift like ink blots
我的名聲如墨漬一般擴散你們卻看到了不同的東西抱著不同的態度
The real dealer we cut classic no fitters
(此處dealer出錯應為Dilla)此處Logic提到了這位年僅32歲就已去世的傳奇製作人J Dilla，以此緬懷
What about the time
我想起當初
I was nine
那年我只有九歲
And my mama almost murdered me
我媽媽在那年差點殺害了我
Don't think I forgot that shit it still burdens me
我從不曾忘記因為它永遠壓在我心口使我難以喘息
Her bare hands tight around my throat I can't breath I screamed I can't breath mama
她的雙手緊緊掐住我的脖子“我喘不過氣了媽媽！ ” 我對她尖叫著“我不能呼吸了媽媽！”
Don't you want me mama
媽媽你真的不要我了嗎
Don't you love me mama
媽媽你真的不愛我了嗎
What the fuck
我不敢相信這眼前的一切
Where was you here god tell me now
上帝告訴我當時的你為何沒有在我身邊
Hows a brother supposed to stay sane tell me how
我一人究竟要如何生存
Why you let me live but let another die
為什麼你最終選著讓我存活卻讓其他人死去
Why you dry my tears but let another cry
為什麼你替我拭去眼淚卻讓別人泣不成聲
Gotta know
我很想知道
Set to detonate I gotta blow
而我現在知道了因為我終如雷鳴一般引爆世界
That shit for show
這痛苦的一切都只為了我在舞台上最終能熾熱發光
I used to wonder why in the hell you would make me suffer
我以前總不明白為何你（上帝）讓我受盡折磨
But now in the end I understand that it made me tougher
但最終我明白了這一切只是讓我更加堅強
I get up when im down
儘管摔倒我會爬起
Had enough almost drowned
儘管曾今我近乎在痛苦中溺亡
When shit rough
但當世事艱辛
I get tough
我會變的更加強大
And when im beaten to the ground I get up
當我被打倒我定會重新站起