i don't wanna grow up anymore

I dont know which way to go now
Whats the point when nobody cares about me?
I hate walking down this street
I keep staring at my feet
Cause Im scared that they look at me
And theyll see my face
I cant explain why Im feeling this way
But I know Im hurting
I dont know what Im learning
What the **** am I learning?
Cause I ****ed up
I ****ed it
Rather run away than confront it
All the past times I said that I loved it
Now Ive grown up its disgusting
Cause I ****ed up
I ****ed it
Rather run away than confront it
All the past times I said that I loved it
Now Ive grown up its disgusting
Its just me, myself and I
Tryna figure out my life
I dont care about the others
Why the **** should I reply?
Im so sick of this shit
Sometimes I wish I could die
Im so scared of growing up and dealing with a normal life
I dont know what to do
When there is nothing in my view
I dont havе a planned career
I dont even havе a clue
Just my blood, sweat and tears
Ive been searching hard for years
Im so scared of waking up and finding that my time is near
Why is everything in my life so hard?
I cant even see the stars in the dark
I can only see the scars in my heart
My heart
Why is everything in my life so hard?
I cant even see the stars in the dark
I can only see the scars in my heart
My heart