Wanna Be Myself

I just wanna do these drugs tonight cause I just wanna be myself
今晚我只想沉浸在幻覺裡，只因我想做回自己
I forgot how to be myself
我已經忘記了自己
I just really miss myself
我懷念真實的自己
I just wanna do these drugs tonight cause I just wanna be myself (Yeah)
今晚我只想沉浸在幻覺裡，只因我想做回自己
I forgot how to be myself (Uh)
我已經忘記了自己
I just really miss myself (Somebody asked me, yeah)
我懷念真實的自己

Somebody asked me, 'What do you have outside of music that really makes you happy?'
有人問我：“你除了音樂還有什麼興趣？”
I thought about it and I aint have no answer
我竟一時無語
I started this shit ten years ago, it was just me and my manager
投身音樂已經十年有餘，最初只有我和經紀
On the road, doin any shows, we was fillin up this calendar
馬不停蹄，有表演就去，日程表上沒有空隙
But Mattys married now and its a whole nothеr chapter
但他現在也已成家，故事也來到了新的篇章
While Im in Gerryland, Im still hеre wildin as a bachelor
當年我在夜場混跡，四處勾搭女人行為放蕩
Woke up next to a stranger, whats her name? I had to ask her
總是在陌生女人身旁醒來，昨晚的事也早就遺忘
She prolly thinks I got it all, but its pain behind this laughter
她以為我應有盡有，卻看不到我笑容後的悲傷
Hungover the mornin after, close my drapes, make it blackout
熟悉的宿醉反應，拉上窗簾，陷入黑暗
Tryna put the pieces together from last night when I blacked out
想要拼湊起昨晚昏迷後的記憶片段
On LSD, had a convo with my brother, it brought a lot up
陷入迷幻，和兄弟通了電話，回憶起了許多
See I dont ever take the uniform off, and now Im clocked out
我已經逢場作戲太久是時候該下班

I just wanna do these drugs tonight cause I just wanna be myself
今晚我只想沉浸在幻覺裡，只因我想做回自己
I forgot how to be myself
我已經忘記了自己
I just really miss myself
我懷念真實的自己
I just wanna do these drugs tonight cause I just wanna be myself
今晚我只想沉浸在幻覺裡，只因我想做回自己
I forgot how to be myself, yeah
我已經忘記了自己
I just really miss myself (Yeah)
我懷念真實的自己

Comin down in my room all alone listenin to Mac
獨自回到房間，Mac的音樂幫我緩解孤獨
Last time he text me, I was ****ed up, forgot didnt hit him back
他最後一次給我發消息，我正處於低谷，忘記給他回复
Wish I could have spoken up, man, I just want my brother back
沒能向你伸出援手，我後悔不已，我想你能回來
But I mean, who am I to talk, bro? Im still livin like that
但我又能和誰傾訴，我的生活依舊一塌糊塗
Theyll never understand what its like to be a artist
他們永遠不會明白藝術家的困難
Make some shit I dont feel, yes men tell me its the hardest
身不由己的生活，還有什麼比這艱難
They just wanna keep their jobs, stay on my good side, keep their office
他們只想保住飯碗，無視我的絕望，只顧自己臉面好看
Keep us on the road, and no commission or the profits
不停歇的工作，卻沒有加班費賺
Now everything is peachy, and yeah, I feel Avici
如今一切看起來都那麼完美，我和Avicii感同身受
Fifty thousand watchin me, but I swear dont nobody see me
所有人都在看著我，卻沒人能把我看透
But its rich people problems, its stamps all in my passport
有錢後才能體會的煩惱，護照上蓋的都是詛咒
My mama tellin me that, 'This is everything you asked for'
媽媽說：“這些都是你所希冀的”
What you want?
你究竟所求何物？

I just wanna do these drugs tonight cause I just wanna be myself
今晚我只想沉浸在幻覺裡，只因我想做回自己
I forgot how to be myself (How to be myself)
]我已經忘記了自己
I just reallymiss myself (Great mind, great mind)
我懷念真實的自己
I just wanna do these drugs tonight cause I just wanna be myself
今晚我只想沉浸在幻覺裡，只因我想做回自己
I forgot how to be myself, yeah
我已經忘記了自己
I just really miss myself
我懷念真實的自己

My anxiety increases the higher that I climb
地位不斷上升，焦慮也與日俱增
I thought this shit would get easier, easier with time
以為時間會撫平一切，我還在苦苦支撐
Im happy in my mind , but at least I tell myself that
我還在暗示自己，我對生活真心熱愛
Guess Im damaged goods, I cannot help that
感覺自己不斷墮落，我也萬般無奈
Drugs take the edge off, hide inside my comfort zone
藥物幫我減輕苦痛，得以逃進舒適區
Different girl every night, but worry Ima die alone
不同女人陪我入夢，但有誰能陪我離去
Me against the world, cant decide now what side Im on
獨自對抗世界，不敢讓他人陪伴
Miss my family but act like I cant even dial a phone
想念我的家人，卻必須裝個硬漢
Cheated on my girl, I felt like shit, and then I sped off
背著女人出軌，被負罪感折磨，於是我逃之夭夭
Crept in the crib quiet, shower, took my wide cell off
悄悄回到房間，洗去香水味道，脫下YSL外套
She woke up, grab my dick, I couldnt help it, had to get off
她醒來，向我求歡，無力推脫，只能滿足她的需要
And if she gave me head, felt like I wanna blow my head off
她想取悅我，可我只感覺頭快要炸掉
Think everybody cheats, everybody will
每個人都會劈腿，不過是時間問題
Everybody leaves, but these drugs never will
每個人都會離開，只有藥片值得相信
I know that sounds ****ed up, but in the end, its real
這聽著一塌糊塗，真相如此不可思議
Til Im lost on a bender askin myself can I chill
直到在狂歡中迷失，才開始思考意義
This scale here will measure, five hundred pounds of pressure
生活太過無情，給我千斤重負
The only thing to alleviate it is a stash in the dresser
唯有死亡才能讓這一切結束
Illuminate my ugly, you really sure you love me?
看到我的陰暗面，你的愛是否依然堅定
You deserve to know the truth, decide now what you think of me
你理應知道真相，現在請做出你的決定

I just wanna do these drugs tonight cause I just wanna be myself
今晚我只想沉浸在幻覺裡，只因我想做回自己
I forgot how to be myself
我已經忘記了自己
I just really miss myself
我懷念真實的自己
I just wanna do these drugs tonight cause I just wanna be myself
今晚我只想沉浸在幻覺裡，只因我想做回自己
I forgot how to be myself, yeah
我已經忘記了自己
I just really miss myself
我懷念真實的自己