Solitude of Enoch

Its hard to say, every sentence is pain
Brothers killing brothers, descendants of Cain
Props if getting knocked, and no mentionin names
Had to steel, all that time I spent in the flame
Cain rose up against Abel, his brother, and slew him
Got to be in grace first, to fall from it
That money chase birthed the fall summit
Was wasteful as big eyes and a small stomach
Funny used to call my friends money, I lost hundreds
From low lands, shook of no man, God fearin
Had death threats, not deaf yet, Im hard hearin
Revenge is the engine, with my heart steerin
Enough disastrous crashes, had to start veerin
Had to use your fists to change your fiscal
Figurin how to get rich became the ritual
As teens bought full magazines, if we had an issue
We all had beef, but for dinner havin gristle
All hooded, even headed in doubt, Im sure-footed
Fear built relationships rapport couldnt
Being angelic get you popped, saying somethin thats off-putting
Feeling weak for being in love, like amour shouldnt
Was action packed, cut your cap just to hate hub
For years spoke the code like every place bugged
Since them dudes in school, move like I taste blood
Fights bought forty nights, like the great flood
Still a nexus to the treacherous gutter
Kept two, never monochrome, my gift technicolor
Like the coat of Joseph, hope it dont affect my brother
Became man of the house quick, had to protect my mother
One of my cousins said he was gon beat me like my pops
I blacked out, was ready to leave him in a box
My sister calmed me down, saw me reachin for the shots
Thats my linchpin, since then, we been on the rocks
Its hard to say, every sentence is pain
Brothers killing brothers, descendants of Cain
Props if getting knocked, and no mentionin names
I had to steel, all that time I spent in the flame
Every sentence is pain
Descendants of Cain
Let him among you who is without sin cast the first stone
May your life be fruitful if I appeal to you
Im defense against ten trying to conceal the truth
Breaded when I medicine, thats what a healer do
Out here was too rough to bluff, every dealer knew
Dont mind if it was gross, this hopes genetic
Did the most to cope when the coast wasnt copacetic
When I rapped to you its natural, no synthetic
Survivors of my father, its my old genetic
I rhyme like divinity
Times the inner me cry from the imagery
Where we stood, no neighborhood sinner-free
From the curb, if any deserve to win its me
To quiet the stomach, we had to rummage
Father gave it all denominations, but wanted hundreds
I wanted hundreds
I wanted hundreds
You got it poppin at the top of the mornin
Couldnt imagine what mothers on gutter blocks was endurin
We took the hits, cause the knot was allurin
My boy back up top, got popped for his urine
If a man slips, bent grip on his vice
We try our best to get it, couldtriple the price
Though crew did it for food, not to be drippin in ice
Pray the stocks stack on my blocks, but liquid is nice
Known to throw trips, show fifths, dip with the dice
Dusk to dawn, much go on, no ubiquitous nights
To get paid out trade route like you shippin a spice
The meek heard 'Turn the other cheek', I got different advice
I got different advice