[Verse 1]
Go ahead and call me a coward
Say that Im not strong because Im not like you
Go ahead and call me crazy
Cause I live in a maze, tell me how about you?
I think I live in my head
Sometimes I think that Im dead, I hide behind my youth
Know I been losing my mind
And Im a little behind, step inside my shoes
Cause Ive never been happy with myself
And I dont need no one feeling bad for me
Tryna to offer me pity and throw jabs at me
Wanna give me advice and then laugh at me
Behind closed doors, just close the door
Let me be by myself—just me and myself
Im tired of living, I cry
I hear its easy to die, I wanna see for myself
And I know that sounds crazy to everyone else
But Im depressed as ****, stressed as ****
Aint no medicine that could cure whats the test as drugs
I mean, I need extra love
And that aint even enough, said that aint even enough
And where the **** is God? (God, God)
Damn, maybe I aint believing enough
But today we gonna see if hes real
And if He is, then I guess Im prolly going to hell
Look, I aint wanna die like this
I aint picture my life like this
They dont know what its like like this
Pretending Im happy so I can smile like this, and laugh like you
Sometimes I wonder if I ever act like you
Could I finally fit in and maybe relax like, 'Woo!'
Or would you feel lost without me?
Cause honestly, I think the world is better off without me
And my minds spinning, this is the line finish
Truth is I dont care how they feel about my feelings
I made up my mind, Im going out like Robin Williams
I guess Im not the Ordinary People of John Legend
And Ive been suicidal since the day I was nine, shit
Okay, the day I was nine
Ive been tired of being bullied, couldnt stay out the fire
Grandma told me I should take it one day at a time
And dammit, look at me now, ****
****, pen runnin out, shit, fu—, ugh
Look, just know its a new day
But if you reading this, then its prolly too late, blaow!
[Chorus]
Just make sure you tell my family its okay, Im sorry
But its too late, Im sorry, so much weighing on me
I dont wanna live to see another day, Im sorry
But I cant stay, Im sorry, so much weighing on me
Just make sure you tell my family its okay, Im sorry
But its too late, Im sorry, so much weighing on me
I dont wanna live to see another day, Im sorry
But I cant stay, Im sorry, so much weighing on me
[Verse 2]
I hope you got what you wanted
I hope you finally happy, its too late for you
Been going out of my mind
You dont know how many times that I done prayed for you
I hope you hear me, goddammit
Cause I got so much shit that I wanna say to you
I used to shine, now Im all in the dark
I remember I used to tell you to follow your heart
But goddammit, look at you now, its all of your fault
How could you? Maybe its my fault
I shoulda paid more attention to what you been doin
Maybe I should have been more of an influence
I cant believe that youre dead, I fu–
I read your letter and all I could do is have mixed feelings about it
But Ill forever be attached to you (Damn)
Part of me feels bad for you
A part of me feels like you weak and Im mad at you
And I dont mean to be insensitive
But I dont understand how we couldnt prevent this shit
You took the easy way out , goddammit, you did
I mean, look what you did, Im so ****ing upset
How could you be so selfish?
Nigga, how could you be so selfish?
Now youre gone, you done left me so helpless
I wonder what God thinks, I hope you in Gods place behaving yourself
Yo, what the **** you gotta say for yourself? (Say for yourself)
Look, I really feel lost without you
I hate the fact you think the world is better off without you
And my minds spinning, this is the line finish
Truth is: I dont care how you feel about my feelings
And Id be lying to you if I told you Im fine, listen
I know that you can hear me, all I need is like five minutes
I just wanna reach inside the casket and pull you out
Im sorry this is something that we both couldnt figure out
I wish I could hear you now, is your soul missing?
I wonder if you could do it again, would you do it different?
Tell me what death is like
Was it meant for you, brodie? Did the heaven support it?
Are you ****ing happy now? Did you get what you wanted?
Isnt this what you wanted? I feel the temperature falling
And youve been suicidal back then you were nine?
Yeah, even back then, you was nine
We was living on the edge, couldnt stay out the fire
Grandma told us we should take it one day at a time
And damn it, look at you now, shit
But its a new day
And if you cant hear me, its probably too late, ****!
[ Chorus]
Just make sure you tell my family its okay, Im sorry
But its too late, Im sorry, so much weighing on me
I dont wanna live to see another day, Im sorry
But I cant stay, Im sorry, so much weighing on me
Just make sure you tell my family its okay, Im sorry
But its too late, Im sorry, so much weighing on me
I dont wanna live to see another day, Im sorry
But I cant stay, Im sorry, so much weighing on me
Just make sure you tell my family its okay, Im sorry
But its too late, Im sorry, so much weighing on me
I dont wanna live to see another day, Im sorry
But I cant stay, Im sorry, so much weighing on me
Just make sure you tell my family its okay, Im sorry
But its too late, Im sorry, so much weighing on me
I dont wanna live to see another day, Im sorry
But I cant stay, Im sorry, so much weighing on me
Im Sorry